...loSt gAl....

NODAME!!!!

2009-10-07T14:57:00.002+08:00

juz manage 2 find the link of the nodame cantabile movie trailer. SOOOO looking forward to it... most likely early next yr for e 1st movie, then another few more months 4 e 2nd movie. WATCH the drama n the special b4 watching the movie. if nt no head no tail of wat going on! :)

any 1 wan 2 go watch tgt when it show on GV?

2009-10-01T16:42:00.003+08:00

juz check online... there is so many movies i wan 2 watch!!!!

1) Coraline (3d)
2) Hachiko
3) Paranormal Activity (2009)
4) April Bride
5) Gokusen
6) 20th Century Boys Part 3 (2009)
7) nodame cantile movie 1 & 2

any1 wan 2 go?

super shag

2009-09-29T15:52:00.002+08:00

.... sch begins again.....
.... super shag.....
.... n i hate e econ lecturer! opening speech is already depressing,e tone he use is like looking down on ppl.... argh!!!!....
.... e rest of e lec still ok... tot juz 1st wk.....
.... damn.... how 2 study.... haiz....

....wk wise.... still e same... bloody irritating ppl ard....

... family.... everything ok.... kaden & ervin is getting more charming....
.... & of course naughty.... but they r still fun 2 play wif....

... friends.... a bit more gathering 4 e past few wks....
.... but dun think will meet up so often anything soon....
... all busy wif sch, wk, r/s.... haiz....

.... haha.... gt time post some of my nephews pic n my loots...
.... but tt gt 2 wait till gt time 2 sit infornt of home pc....

.... gt 2 stop now.... prepare 2 go 4 class soon.... sian....

updates

2009-07-30T14:08:00.002+08:00

... nth much 2 update...
....coz most thing 4 gt liao...
...lolz....

.... sch... ok... havnt made friends yet....
.... i noe... almost half e term has gone....
.... ppl who noe me shld noe....
.... lolz.....

.... work.... same few words....
.... shit... hell.... irritating.... HAIZ....

... family.... happy.... n i love my newphews!!!!... bring me so much joy!!!!
.... shld stop b4 boss complain....

PISSED!!!!

2009-07-21T16:59:00.001+08:00

I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAN GO ON A SHORT BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

updates

2009-06-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

.....
lots of things happen....
.... lazy 2 update....
.... brief 1...

stess stress stress
kbox service sux
poly gathering
enrolment talk
surprise party @ hard rock
fsm briefing
stress n more stress
cursing n swearing
new formation in room
mass spring cleaning
new storage area
shopping @ bugis
beancurd tarts
more stress

upcoming things....
preparing 4 sch
more stupid testings
going 4 short trip
waiting 4 loots 2 come

pic will post when i gt my loots

more loots....

2009-04-25T23:10:00.004+08:00

... haha.... a few things 2 update....very brief 1...

ervin can walk liao!!!!!
fall sick pass few days....
mummy coming back le!!!!....
receive uol package le....
bank account running low again....
changes going on in my life... hopefully is 4 e better :)

ma nt ard tis few days.... help 2 wash my own clothes, pray & prepare offerings & help sis look aft ervin.... miss ma so much... tt y tues me n sis taking leave 2 spend wif her :)

lolz.... 2day when shopping wif sis after work n buy a lot of things.... mostly on impluse.... later show ur some video on 1 cute stuff we bought... lolz....

damaged done this wk without ma ard.... estimated

novels - $60
cash book - S20
teddy bear - $18
slippers - $16
pants - $40
toys - $30
makeup sponge - $15

zzzz.... still gt some more... cant rmb wat else i bought... lolz....

e video i mention abt.... showing stitch 1 only coz each gt 3 n will take ages 4 me 2 load ...

taiko no tatsujin

2009-04-12T18:45:00.005+08:00

.... make a decision ytd....

.... went down 2 buy taiko no tatsujin:)

.. happy wif my buy.... buy burn a big hole in e pocket....

.... wat 2 do... i love e game.... n told mum it a present 4 myself.... lolz....

... now gt 2 wait 4 my wii come back on next wk then can play.... bo.....

some pics of taiko set:)

the box... cute rite!!!!

TAIKO!!!!! no i dun nd 2 go arcade 2 play taiko le!!!! ervin also noe how 2 hit the drum wif e stick... lolz

even e disc is so cute :)

disc cover... cute!!!!

cant wait 4 my wii 2 come back so i can play!!!!

loots... updates....

2009-04-10T21:40:00.006+08:00

.... long time no update... coz work gt too many things 2 complain abt... c no pt 2 post here coz recalling it will only add on 2 my anger.... wan 2 update on my nephews... but always update abt them will b weird.... haha.... think abt wat 2 update then.....

... ok.... e usual..... my LOOTS.... pic speak a thousand words....
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...the 1st 2 pic is my comestics.... been crazy over shiseido products this few months.... keep on buying it... esp. majolica majorca(MM) items, c e no. of mascara i had... lolz....last 4 pic is my new accessories... buy tgt wif my frm online forum.... lolz.... actually still gt a lot of new things.... but difficult 2 take all pic n post.... gt anna sui items, both real n look alike.... gt comestic cooler, new shoes.... haha... n some more which i also 4gt liao.... hear some1 screaming SPEND SO MUCH AGAIN!!!!! lolz....

... ok.... back to makeup...hmm... @ tt time my foundation already on e verge of finishing n feel like it time 2 switch 2 another brand.... coz it seem like my skin cant take maybelline products anymore.... alway feel itchy when using e foundation.... wanted 2 gt shiseido makeup coz mum is using it n is really gd... actually is e maquillage series i wanted....... but my pocket dun have tt much cash... and e foundation they have tt time 4 tt series is 2 way cake.... i hate 2 way cake....

.... gt 2 noe abt MM when surfing forums & reading some of my frend blogs.... do a bit of research.... n totally fall in love wif e products.... b4 watson bring in 2 sg only can buy online... n e price is zzzzz..... lolz.... but sg watson also quite ex.... but cheaper than most blogs.... lolz.... juz bought a new mascara 2day... frm msia.... limited edition, cant find in sg coz they didnt bring in.... zzzz... n way lot cheaper!!!.... by almost$10.... lolz.... but nt going 2 use until i finish my shiseido 1 (presents frm C&P last yr....didnt open it till last month ok!!!!)

.... suppose 2 find a cheaper alternative 4 shiseido foundation.... but end up buying all other MM stuff but nt their foundation.... coz they dun have liquid foundation!!!!!.... lolz.... tt gold case u c.... i wanted 2 gt shiseido compact powder (i dun mind compact powder but nt 2 way cake!!!!) n put it in.... but still havnt go n buy yet... broke la... i still gt so much things on my waiting list....

.... anyway.... back 2 foundation.... mum sponser 1!!!.... tt time go shopping wif her n dad.... then go OG gt sales.... been pestering ma 2 gt foundation 4 herself.... coz she always say hers going 2 finish.... so gt sales faster urge her 2 buy.... then c they gt promo.... end up asking her 2 buy 4 me.... from 1 foundation... 2 maquillage lipstick... to concealer.... end up ask mum 2 buy 1 skincare product n now become shiseido circle member!!! lolz.... when paying... dad saw e receipt n sigh... LOLZ!!!!!.... e eyelash curler is e 2nd time tt make me fall in luv wif shiseido products.... coz it really curl all my lashes, even e stubborn lashes!!!... intro frm sis.... both of us gt 1 each... mum sponser again i think.... lolz.... end up ask my 2 buy also n she is happy wif e result too!!!!

....lolz.... speaking of my..... thanks so much these few wks keep on replying 2 my sms.... juz notice i been sending her ard 20-40 sms each day.... work too stress n nd some1 2 complain 2 & seek advice... she been replying 2 most of my sms... think e bill will b quite high if exceed... :P thanks gal, 4 accompanying me when i gt so freaking piss off wif e stupid AP & AH officers.... spending e whole afternoon n roaming ard in imm n JP n cheering me up :P would have break down tt day if nt 4 u :)....think i also affected her in 2 going 4 makeup stuff... lolz... been discussing abt MM, shiseido, faceshop, skinfood & anna sui items... lolz.... gal!!! wait 4 u 2 come back frm korea then go shopping again hor!!!! lolz.... foresee bank acc going 2 b empty again.....

... think update enough on makeup..... back 2 other things... juz registered wif sim... preparing 2 take uol accountings.... dunno will gt in a nt... cant wait any more 2 further studies... seriously dun think i can survive in tis line now.... heard a lot of advices frm many n really thanks for it.... had positive n negetives 1.... but all e same.... decision lies wif me.... n hope everything can go according 2 plan :)

... also.... next next wk... parents going 4 tour again.... so dinner is going 2 b packed.... n a lot of things gt 2 diy.... haiz..... no choice.... hopefully can go tour really soon.... keep seeing ppl ard me go tour... make me aching 2 take a short trip also.... hope can go japan next yr!!!!.... wif e whole family.... been donkey yrs since we go on a trip as a whole family... n hope this time rd bro n sis n e new family members will b able to go :) e last family trip was like 10+ yrs ago!!!! i wan a family trip!!!!

... 2dayis sis BD!!!! lolz.... HAPPY BD SIS (i doubt she read.... she dun even noe my blog.... LOLZ!!!!).... speaking of bd.... gt 2 update on my wishlist really soon.... some of e stuff already had.... some of e stuff.... given up liao.... lolz....

FPO

2009-03-25T10:35:00.002+08:00

.... damn annoyed....
.... all work related....
.... gt assholes ppl asking for assholes things....
.... f* up.....
.... almost thrown temper infront of e asshole ytd....
....damn annoying!!!!!!....
.... body aching like hell!!!!...
.... more annoying is asshole claim 2 have some1 2 assist contractors... end up i doing e job!!!! asshole!!!!!!

... faster change place ....
.... if nt this bloody site turning in2 warzone.....

NEXT!!!!!

.... ervin seem 2 have a slight fever 2day....
.... didnt gt 2 play wif him ytd....
.... by e time i reach hme he already slping.....
... all thanks 2 e assholes!!!!.....

.... waiting 4 my loots 2 arrive.... long long wait.... getting pissed....

.... tml eye checkup...... zzzz... eyesight these few days nt doing well.... might nd 2 wear glasses again..... zzzzz...... dun wan!!!!!

.... sian....

2009-02-20T18:12:00.005+08:00

... long time nv update.... so update a bit....
.... took leave ytd n 2day.... 2 clear my projects.....
.... end up all havnt finish.....
.... 2nite go back must chiong liao.... if nt cannot finish....
.... tml aft class still nd 2 go out wif sis.....

.... wan 2 leave tt place.... but tie down by so many things....
.... fan ah.....

.... dun care liao..... show ur some pic of my adorable newphews!!!!!....
.... taken last week or slightly earlier....

ERVIN!!!! dun he look cute?

Our 3 Princes. Ervin, Kaden, Kevis, with grandpa @the back

Kaden smiling so sweet!!!

looking @ me.... saying hi!!!!

chubby little BB!!!! wan 2 pinch his cheeks so much!!!!

worst day yet...

2009-01-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

.... haiz.....
.... my day juz sux nmore n more each day...
.... ytd kenna push ard 2 do work.... become PA for their bloody business....
... 2day kenna scolding from old hag .... going 2 kenna LD....
.... hate my job....

.... say till so nice.... i dun blame u for missing out 1, 2 item.... e fact is she is blaming every single thing to me!!!!! hate her!!!!! e day b4 can talk so nicely to me.... e next second bite e @ e back.......
.... contractor giving me hard time.... colleague also half-heartly help.... whatever shit job can push all push 2 me!!!!! hate e place!!!!!!

.... suppose to prepare to do project.... now totally no mood 2 start....mind keep on drifting 2 what going to happen tml..... tml big boss coming..... if he noe abt it he going 2 jump like hell..... haiz.....
dun feel like going 2 work @ all....feeling damn down.....

..... dunno how boss will push all e blame to them or wat..... contractor confirm will make noise.... confirm push e blame to me again..... hate tis job ah!!!!!.... seriously doubting if i m really suitable for tis line of work..... keep kenna pushed ard......

..... for bloody hell sake..... juz let me enter local uni on full time basis!!!!! i cant stand it anymore....

updates

2009-01-16T19:59:00.003+08:00

... shld b listening 2 class now... but cant concentrate....
.... shld b doing project... no motivation....
... update a bit abt my adorable newphews....

Kaden 1st mth

ervin @ e party

playing wif my sunglasses

laughing to my weird sound effects

they r so cute rite!!!!

haha... nt happy... c their pic.... think of them... brighten my mood immediately....

.... bored & fan!!!!

2009-01-04T16:20:00.001+08:00

... suppose 2 do projects...
... somehow... no motivation @ all...
.... stupid me.... even give up going 2 m'sia wif ma they all 2day....
.... wat e hell is wrong wif me....
.... hate it la....
... think next wk gt 2 find 1 day apply leave 2 finish e stupid project again....
... sian... feel like i m wasting all my leave on stupid little things....
... anyway 2 motivate me 2 faster finish e damn projects!!!!!....

New year resolutions

2009-01-02T13:01:00.003+08:00

found this on the web. another reason y nt 2 set new yr resolution. wahaha

New Year's resolutions can be bad for you: mental health charity
AFP - Thursday, January 1
LONDON (AFP) - - Making self-improvement New Year's resolutions often leaves people feeling worse, the British mental health charity Mind has warned.

Mind urged people not to make resolutions focusing on physical imperfections -- such as attempting to lose weight -- because they create a negative self image and lead to feelings of low self-esteem, hopelessness and even mild depression.
And when such optimistic resolutions fail, that could spark feelings of inadequacy and failure, the charity warned.

"New Year's resolutions can sometimes focus on our problems or insecurities such as being overweight, feeling unhappy in our jobs or feeling guilty about not devoting enough time to friends and family throughout the year," said Mind chief executive Paul Farmer.
"We chastise ourselves for our perceived shortcomings and set unrealistic goals to change our behaviour, so it's not surprising that when we fail to keep resolutions, we end up feeling worse than when we started.

"In 2009, instead of making a New Year's resolution, think positively about the year to come and what you can achieve."

Mind suggested resolution-makers focus instead on being active, connecting with nature, learning something new and working for one's community.

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if really have 2 set will be leaving tis place asap... either 4 fatter paycheck if nt 4 degree ...
cant stand it anymore.... everyday more n more shit juz come landing @ me....
.... bloody hell....
... faster finish course... faster find new job.... fast go study uni....
... e rest of e things dun care liao....
WAHAHA

*p.s. writing this on e verge of going mad and screaming @ contractor in abt an hr time....
*p.s.s if any1 interested in taking over my job here contact me!!!!

... ok.... shld really stop crapping n carry on wof my pathetic job and loads of projects...

final minutes of 2008

2008-12-31T23:51:00.004+08:00

.... shld be doing something more meaningful instead of wasting the past 2 hrs staring @ e screen....
... e.g. set resoultion (no habit of doing tt... further more wont ever borther... WAHAHA)
... doing my projects.... (i dun even have a case study to work on how 2 start!!!!)
.... haiz..... better stop grumpling abt all these....

.... change a new skin coz seem like e old 1 gt prob....
.... now e only prob i have is my poor eyes.... so tire till cant see properly.....
.... shld go slp le....
.... anyway.....

HAPPY 2009 IN ADVANCE!!!!!

like e helll any1 will view my grumpy bread blog.... lolz.....

really nd 2 slp.... if gt time 2 blog tml then conti.... THAT IS IF gt time... (most likely going 2 rot another P.H. away.... -.-)

holidays burnt

2008-12-23T15:59:00.004+08:00

zzzz..... coming holidays all burnt......
... project submissions all e way till march.....
.... cny no nd 2 celebrate le.... sob..... nt even e nearer ny.... sian....

.... another thing 2 hate abt tis workplace....
y e hell cant we go on half days on PH eve!!!!!
dun care liao.... as soon i find a job aft my course i quit!!!!....
... hard 2 gt a transfer out of here!!!!!.....

... no mood 2 work..... wan 2 leave earlier.....
5pm come quick!!!! damn hungry.....
.... havnt have lunch due 2 e freaking stupid fire drill.....
next mth gt even more!!!! damn irritated by tis f idiots!!!!

moody

2008-12-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

... finally gt an answer.... shld stop feeling bugged by it....

.... nt a gd start 4 e wk....
... i hate tt bloody asshole!!!!!....
... treat ppl like items!!!!! nd manpower juz take w/o e basic courtey of asking!!!!!....
... fine!!!! i would let my guys do ot 2 clear his fucking shit!!!!!......
... wish him kenna knock down by truck n squash into meat sauce!!!!!

... notice i been spending n spending non-stop ever since i come back frm taiwan....
.... every month my bank acc juz hit rock bottom.....
.... bought another ex bag....
... bought new makeup stuff, fake nails, hair products....
.... bough tons of pressent 4 my 3 nephew..... m i spoiling them?.....
..... next on my list aft eyesight stable will be new sunglasses....
.... went jp wif sis juz now n eyeing on oakley sunglass....
... if i buy tt... will cost my another few hundred.....
... shld wait n c....

.... no mood 2 do projects....
.... nd 2 submit soon butno motivation 2 do....
.... sian....

totally pissed

2008-12-09T15:36:00.004+08:00

totally pissed off!!!!
if nt free or dun wan 2 go then juz say so!!!!
u think i everyday ask nt sian 1 isit!!!!
dun juz go avoid me as thou u noe nth abt it!!!!
irk me off!!!! i rather u tell me u dun wan or cannot make it then 2 everyday check wif u can or cannot!!!!!

cant find any 1 2 go checkup wif me on thurs... fine.... go myself.... sick n tire of asking n asking when all say cannot confirm!!!!!
if u think i misunderstood or watever clarify wif me then!!!!
really start to wonder y e hell i m also waiting 4 answer when e rest juz dun bother!!!!!

something tell me tt no 1 will even bother to read.... y e hell did i even wan 2 post it up!!!!
just sick n tire of all!!!!

HK TRIP CANCELLED!!!! EVERYONE HAPPY?????!!!!!

in office

2008-11-13T11:29:00.005+08:00

... bored....
... gt work 2 do.... but being lazy....
.... no mood 2 work....

.... class so far is quite fun.... but starting frm friday.... dun think it will b as fun as e previous lesson.... lolz.....

.... haha.... i think i finish spending my bonus already.... bought new bags again.... planning 2 buy another 1 soon.... lolz.... cant resist e good offer!!!!.....
... will post e pic once i gt time 2 take e cam out 2 take pic.... LOLZ.....

.... lately.... been surfing net 2 search 4 jap hp.... omg.... so damn chio!!!!.... but is freaking ex!!!!
.... function wise.... look @ some of the model.... nt bad.... but no T9.... meaning i cant read chinese or send chinese sms..... zzzz..... nth much tho.... coz unless cny or mcf.... then will receive chinese sms.... wahaha....
.... cant use mms also.... diao....
.... e lamest part..... gt bluetooth function..... but then it solely 4 e purpose of connecting ur hp 2 ur earpeice... !?!?!?!?!?! stupid.....
.... really gt 2 consider if i wan 2 gt it a nt.....

a few of the models i wan....
http://www.nttdocomo.co.jp/product/foma/prime/f01a/index.html
http://www.nttdocomo.co.jp/product/foma/style/n02a/index.html
http://www.nttdocomo.co.jp/product/foma/style/p02a/index.html

http://www.nttdocomo.co.jp/product/foma/prime/sh01a/index.html
http://www.nttdocomo.co.jp/product/foma/prime/sh03a/index.html

so damn chio!!!!

e other brand.... gt bluetooth tt can use 2 transfer data.... but appearances & spec.... still lost 2 docomo.... hmm.... gt 1 yr or so 2 consider....
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....bag.... recently buy a lot... rootote.... super lover.... now planning 2 buy crumpler backpack & maybe a coach bag.... wanted burberry.... but is freaking ex.... so settle 4 coach ba....

... haha.... ma say i buy so many bags can open shop liao.... thinking back.... i really buy a lot of bags since start working....

.... let's c....
... nike sling/laptop bag....
... nike white sling bag...
... hellolulu laptop sleeve
... hellolulu accessories bag....
.... tokidoki lesacsport bag...
... addias respect me bag...
... rootote shopper....
... rootote medium....
... super lover piano bag....
.... addias sakura bag....
.... coach signature business madeline (pending payment)....

.... still gt a few more which i cant rmb.... haha.... those cloth bag for storage 1... i bought 2 organise my bags/jeans/jackets....
... i use 5 4 bags..... now nd 2 get another 1 4 keep my o/s bags.... -_-"....
.... some1 gt 2 stop me from buying so many bags!!!!

.... i m nuts..... but cant help it!!! lolz.....

.... ervin is having a fever now.... he's growing teeth!!!!! lolz....

.... feeling sick right now.... coughing non-stop..... sian....
.... hope 2 go back early 2day... didnt slp too well ytd....

Happy wkends

2008-10-19T22:31:00.003+08:00

... been busy & sick or the past few days....

... anyway.... payday!!!!.... finally gt my bonus.... n a pathetic increment....
... anyway... bought wii fit!!!! e whole family luv it!!!!.... 1st time ma nv complain i waste $$ on game.... wahaha....
... n those things i buy online.... my bags n games... all reach b4 e wkends.... going 2 start playing soon!!!!....

ytd.... or shld i sae tis morning... went wif qy they all go jp watch 20th centry boys.... super shiok!!!! cant wait 4 e next 1 out.....

... n also... finally finish e engineering maths n science module.... now waiting 4 results.... if manage 2 gt in wsh course.... then nov start class again.....

... btw.... any1 free 2 go vivo shopping either 25/10, 01/11 or 08/11? i gt vivo vouchers tt is expiring soon... still havnt tot of wat 2 buy yet.... dun wan 2 waste it....

... shld go slp liao.... period making me cramp like hell.... next few days will b busy like hell again.... more ots....ZZZZZZ.... seriously hate tis workplace!!!!!

pissed off

2008-10-10T10:24:00.003+08:00

refer to earlier post on hk trip

purpose of saying earlier is to set aside some savings for e trip... if u wan 2 go... if dun wan go hk... we can go somewhere else... but prefer somewhere further than malaysia.... malaysia so near we can go anytime....

if dun wan 2 go on tis trip can plan another 1... but i wouldnt have e time 2 join or plan any other trip aft july...

tt all i wan 2 say.... if dun wan then forget it!!!!!

HK trip!!!!

2008-10-07T13:39:00.003+08:00

.... dunno how many ppl will read my blog.... but here goes....

.... CnP peeps!!!! listen up!!!!!...

... I wan to plan a 4days trip to HK.... expected date of departure is last 2 wks of July 2009...
... dun complain y so early plan hor... give advance notice coz nd 2 save up all e cost.... inclusive of shopping, air tix, transport in hk & hotels all these!!!!.... estimate cost 1.5k... unable to give e current value cost who noes whether the fuel all these going 2 raise by how much by e time we going....

anyway.... is free & easy tour..... planning 2 c if tour agency is cheaper or book online is cheaper.... think end of the yr or early next feb will know....

... so peeps!!!! save up now k!!!!!.... been dying to go on a trip out of sg..... sentosa dun count hor....

more photos!!!!

2008-10-02T20:57:00.005+08:00

Most recent loots....

XXXHOLiC Kei necklace & braclet!!!!!

juz notice.... i luv teardrop thingy.... notice my hair band from koton tozai is also tear drop.... luv 2 bits.....

gt so excited when i saw e necklace n bralet online.... pratically 'scream' @ ch over msn....
sat meet her cant wait 4 her 2 come down.... rush 2 animehse 2 buy liao..... juz receive sms frm animehse there tt my xxxholic novel reach liao!!!!.... collecting next sat when meet cnp ppl....

speaking of clamp works.... i cant wait 4 clamp in 3d land 7 & 8.... last 2 set 2 my collection.... simply adore sakura chan in set 7 & syaoran in set 8.... n argh!!!! y only japan can gt e limited edition of 'clone' syaoran & vampire faye!!!!! so unfair!!!!!

dun mind me.... juz being grumpy..... back 2 clamp in 3d land....
sharon (animehse) say she might have problem bringing set 7.... her supplier giving problems.... pray super super hard the shipment will reach!!!!! cant find anywhere else in SG selling e figurine!!!!!... dun wan 2 buy from ebay due to paypal.... i freaking dun like 2 use paypal!!!!.....
crossing all my fingers & toes 4 it 2 come!!!!....

next...

1) earphone
2)usb port
3)keyboard
4) DIY earring holder
5) convertion of notice board to necklace holder
6) BB Ervin holding milk bottle!!!!

actually still gt.... but lazy 2 take photos n upload.... next time come my hse then c... lolz!!!!

Musician by Yumi Mitora Kusakurin

2008-10-02T20:36:00.005+08:00

Any D.Gray Man viewers who had watch the recent eps of D.gray man will know this song....totally in love with this song!!!!!

find the lyrics online... cant wait 4 e offical release in dec!!!!

そして坊やは眠りについた
息衝（づ）く灰の中の炎ひとつふたつと

soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuite
ikizuku hai no naka no honoo hitotsu futatsu to

So as the boy fell to sleep.
The fire in the ash engulfs the air. One by one...

浮かぶふくらみ愛しい横顔
大地に垂（た）るる幾千の夢
銀の瞳のゆらぐ夜に生まれおちた輝くお前
幾億の年月がいくつ祈りを土へ還しても

ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao
daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume yume
gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni umareochita kagayaku omae
iku oku no toshitsuki ga ikutsu inori wo tsuchi e kaeshite mo

what rise and grow large are my beloved profiles.
What trickle down to earth are the thousands of dreams...dreams...
On the night when the silver eyes were trembling what came to born was you, as you shined.
No matter how many times the ever-passing time return the prayers back down to earth...

ワタシは祈り続ける
どうかこの子に愛を
つないだ手にキスを

watashi wa inori tsuzukeru
douka kono ko ni ai wo
tsunaida te ni kisu wo

I will never cease to pray.
Oh please, show this child what love is.
Please give a kiss to his hands you hold.

sakae sushi & ervin!!!!!

2008-10-02T14:34:00.005+08:00

Sakae Sushi.... like e colors.... hahaha!!! CH bo liao wan distrub me take pic... end up in e pic herself....

Our lunch/dinner.... Katsu curry 4 ch n teriyaki ramen for me..... still prefer MOF ramen.....

didnt take a lot of photos..... haha.... been eating n walking e whole day... tire sia....

up next.... ervin photos!!!!

cute rite!!!!!

luv e 1 in yellow e diao face.... couldnt gt 1 which he laugh till eyes close yet..... boo....

will load some of my loots later @ nite...

....tire & slpy....

2008-10-02T14:26:00.002+08:00

.... zzz.... super tire n slpy....
.... spend e whole day ytd sorting out my anime.....
.... SIAN!!!! gt quite a no. eps spoil liao....
.... gt 2 redownload.....

.... nth 2 do in office....
... or shld i sae dun feel like doing....
.... no mood la....
.... tummy dun feel well again.... zzzz

later if gt time will post some pic of e sakae sushi trip wif ch... lol!!!!

... tire...

2008-09-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

.... super tire....
... frm wk n sch....
.... tml.... going 2 fight war again....
.... when can i leave tis damn place.....
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.... it either something wrong with blogskin.com, window vista or winzip.... found a blogskin nt bad.... wan 2 change.... open e 'file'.... all i gt is a weird characters.... try a few different skin.... all e same.... damn.....

... made a bit changes 2 e music.... mel & xq!!!! now change e layout liao!!!! ur can stop e music as u wish.....

.... okay.... i going nuts.... gt 2 slp soon.... tml battle going 2 last more than 15 hrs..... dead.....

updates

2008-09-20T10:45:00.002+08:00

.... havnt been blogging abt non-work related things....
.... been busy wif sch..... & juz recovered from a bad gastric related thingy.... sian..... juz receive another assignment 2 complete.....
.... hell.... gt 2 write a 2 page report with all e caln n y using tis method/formula 2 gt e answer....
... i hate tis kind of assignments.....

... spoke to ma n pa abt further education.....
... n they say if i wan 2 study full time.... go ahead.... still.... they prefer me 2 study part time tot....
.... wait till i finish e course 1st then apply.... still thinking shld i study my interest or study 4 e $$$$.... haiz....

.... n also.... i gt my dream hp!!!! black somemore!!!!.... actually gt it 4 like 2 wks liao....
... didnt mention b4 coz life is so stress up.... zzzz.... spend quite a bit on it.... hahaha.... now my pa also wan tis hp!!!! LOL!!!!

.... haha.... shld post some pic soon..... ervin is growing cuter n cuter by e day.... n he had 2 teeth growing out!!!! KAWAII!!!!!!! everyday go back n hug him... so huggable!!!!!!

.... n finally... taiwan photos n my bd party photos had been developed.... took me ages 2 sort them out.... e next time is e video of e long due china trip in 2007 n e taiwan trip..... wonder when will i have e time 2 sit infornt of e pc 2 do e editing.... provided e pc dun hang halfway thru e editing.... man.... i hate 2 do it when ppl pressure me 2 do it.....
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..... dying 2 go shopping...... n 4 a small like gathering wif close frens..... miss them a lot....
... gt so much wan 2 tell n ask them 4 opinions.... but some how... it seem i m drifting away.....
.... damn.... going 2 b emo again.....
... hate it.....

HAD ENOUGH!!!!!

2008-09-12T11:01:00.002+08:00

HAD ENOUGH!!!!! ON MC ALSO CANNOT IS IT!!!!!
BEEN ON MC A DAY N THEY HAD ALREADY CREATE A WHOLE DUMP OF SHIT 4 ME 2 CLEAR!!!!!!
WTF IS WRONG WIF TIS PLACE!!!!!!!

I DUNNO HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE IT B4 I BREAKDOWN IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!
PLEASE!!!!! I NEED A NEW ENVIROMENT!!!!!!

had enough!!!!!!

2008-09-05T13:33:00.002+08:00

any1 wif gd job lobang tell me! i had it wif this place! unreasonable demands n false accusation!!!!

hate e ppl here!!!!! think as they r god n bloody hell irriting!!!!!
been doing accordly n still sae fail to carry out due diligence!!!!! WTF!!!!!!

been emailing tons of time asking 4 a schedule n they refuse 2 give 1. propose e dates n they reject all!!!!! how 2 please them!!!!!!! bloody idiots!!!!!!

BURN THIS WHOLE PLACE DOWN!!!!!!!!

... class started...

2008-09-04T11:38:00.002+08:00

.... zzzz.... manage 2 survive e 1st day of class....
... damn.... i'm e only gal in e class.... worst still e youngest.....
.... hope when officially start e real thing in nov, gt more gals.... i dun wan 2 do assigments n projects wif a bunch of guys, uncles some more....
.... reach np super early.... tml try 2 leave a bit later then c how it goes..... dun wan 2 stay back ot 4 other days.....

.... 1st lesson as sort of like recap 4 me..... soooooo long nv touch a maths topics.....
.... glad i still rmb e basic......
.... coming wkend gt 2 mug..... hopefully.....

.... something is seriously wrong wif me.....
.... my memory is getting worst....
... n i cant rmb things i m suppose 2 do..... wat e hell is wrong wif my brain....
.... juz b4 starting class all over again.... dun make me so 4gtful.... can die 1 leh.... zzzzz....

....becoming s shopping addict.....

2008-08-31T22:55:00.003+08:00

.... zzzz.... as e heading.... 1 will expect i spent a lot again....
.... no time 2 post pic of my loots....
.... spend more than wat i m earning for tis mth already....
.... worst of all... still more 3 more wks b4 payday.....
... damn.....

... will post e pic asap.... wanted to post.... but looking 4 a new blogskin juz eat e time away.....
.... as u can c.... i still cant find 1 skin tt i like.... it either no column 4 music.... if nt too small... or e design i dun like..... too bad i cant make my own skin... no talent in tis n no tools 2 play wif.... juz hope i can find 1 in e near future....

.... starting class on wed..... already starting 2 feel e stress.... hope i can cope both work n studies.... take tis time as a training.... if really cant cope.... will have 2 reconsider taking part time uni..... i dun wan 2 end up having nervous breakdown..... work itself is stress enough....

.... i strongly believe my addiction is cause by work stress.....

... m i right?.....

... shld slp soon.... i hate e testing months coz it eat away all my sat mornings for a whole month, worst 2 months!!!! argh!!!! hate my work scope!!! most of all... hate e stupid idiots drifting e stupid contract n anyhow dump so many items in2 our scope... all e shit!!!!!.... screw tt guy.... whichever idiot tt is & u r being curse n sweared!!!! even by ur own ppl!!!! LOLZ!!!!!! serves u right!!!!!

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ok.... i m nuts..... give me a pack of screws & screwdriver to screw back my nuts & hit e sack.....

... tummy aches....

2008-08-28T13:46:00.002+08:00

....zzzz.... dun feel so well e whole morning.....
.... tummy has been stirring inside......
.... hate tis feeling.......
.... gt 2 go toilet every few mins......
.... wif my stupid kneecap adding on to my pain.... it only gt worse....
.... damn.... i shld c a doc soon.....

.... wanted to update aft work ytd.... but reach hme.... lazy..... packing my study table.... dump so stuff.... so end up didnt even surf net.... slp super early ytd.... but nt a gd rest @ all.... been waking up several times..... hate it.... now super tire.....

.... comex starting 2day...... hopefully tml can go down with sis.... made a long list of stuff i gt 2 buy...... sian ah..... keep on complainting no $$$ but keep on spending..... zzzz..... no end 2 it..... some more i still wan 2 study.... y my things always break down @ e same time!!!!..... zzzzz....

.... changing hp really soon...... e current 1.... cannot make it liao.... service so many times liao still e same prob.... dun think going 2 gt back se anytime soon.... hopefully e next 1 i gt wont give me so much prob....

... nd 2 go again... update later if i nt lazy....

updates....

2008-08-27T12:18:00.002+08:00

... made a decision ytd....
... i going to apply 4 specalist diploma in WSH.....
... but 1st gt 2 go thru engineering maths 1st....
.... hope i can make it.... sooooo long since i last touch a maths related stuff.....
... starting lesson next wk.... if pass then i can continue to take wsh in nov.....

.... juz check the schedule.... if sucessful take wsh then i grad in may.... then can apply 4 uni again....
.... if successful then i b conti studies till 2-4 yrs later.... ma sae i have waste too much time in thinking.... true.... so tis time rd going 2 apply 4 private..... thinking shld i try 4 gov 1 again a nt..... but definitly will enter uni next yr... by hook or by crook.... work wise... c how it goes lor....
... time being... dun wan 2 think abt it..... so tis post i wont be posting anything wif work.... if nt i b grumpy.... lolz...

back to updates....
... i m broke!!!!!.....
.... spent a lot over e past few wks.....
.... payday.... 20/08.... took half day n went out wif sis.... go make spec.... lolz.... i going 2 have transition lens again!!!!! brown 1!!!!! lolz... i gt it 4 $150 only!!!!! lolz.... w/o frame of course..... i already won a free meet frame... so juz use it lor..... then went 2 IMM.... shop @ daiso.... gt some materials for my DIY stuff.... shld post it soon.... buy domoku small plush.....then meet qx n qy for dinner @ jp kuishin bo buffet... each pay 35++.... zzzz.... buy fake nails.... totally regret it....

... next day... went 2 siling jie jie shop 2 buy fake nails.... spent almost 50 bucks... =.=
... jap fest.... spend another 20+.... zzz e sad thing is no yukata 2 change in2.... n it rained e whole day.....

following day... went wif qy 2 henderson industrial park 2 e P.I warehse sales.... bought the dooperdoo jacket n tee.... luv it 2 bits.....

update later.... gt 2 run.... lolz....

random again....

2008-08-13T21:51:00.003+08:00

... damn.....

.... develop a bad habit....

... everytime when super stress up or angry....

.... will tend 2 spend a lot more....

... may it be food or non edible stuff.....

... the 1st 4 pics are the accessories i had bought during e sch bazzar....

... fall in luv wif it once i see them.... zzzz.... overspent again.....

... e baby gloomy is tt day go out wif qx buy 1.... gt 1 landyard also.... last 2 post.... post next time....

.... i wan 2 buy n82..... i wan 2 make new spec..... zzzz... i gt so many wants!!!!!.....

.... zzz.... seriously wan 2 change another environment....

... is either i die frm bad health or i jail 4 murder.....

... everyday go there like entering a battlefield.... worst.... slaughtering farm....

... everyday gt something/some idiots laying on e chopping board wif a sign "chop me up!!!!"....

.... damn piss....

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i wan go jap fest!!!!!

.... i wan 2 buy yukata.... but now buy online might nt reach sg in time 4 jap fest le....

.... mayb next yr.... or some 1 wan 2 sponser?.... still considering shld gt a nt.... it nt something i will wear every month.....

.... zzzz.... if go jap... confirm buy 1.... there soooooooo cheap!!!!!!.....

.... shld stop now..... tv time....

.... lolz.... tml is bb ervin 5mth!!!!! he is soooooo cute!!!!!!

.... simply adore him..... cant wait 4 him 2 sit up on his own n start crawling.....

bitching

2008-08-07T10:38:00.002+08:00

a stupid bitch just spoil my day!
complain over the phone like no body business!
like it my fault for the unit to break down when ur tend to overuse the unit!

contractors also make my blood boils!
pay them to work here, work still nt moving! in e end gt 2 clear their shit!
when sign contract say till so nice, here to support us, where is e support!!!!!
everytime say will look into it, will look into it, still e same!!!!!!!
bloody irritating!!!!!

e stupid bitch in e office is no better!
make it like ppl owe her!
air con turn it till so cold!!!!
even room temperature water can turn cold till like u collect it frm the water cooler!
u feel hot then go lose weight! ppl in e office are all falling sick thanks to u bitch!

this place is full of psyco & sickos!
i wan 2 transfer!!!!!!

....hungry...

2008-08-05T10:32:00.002+08:00

.... lolz.... suppose 2 b in meeting 2day....
.... end up cancel.....
..... super hungry now.....
.... ma nt feeling well.... later evening going 2 movies..... feel so guilty.....
..... sian sian ah..... workplace juz sucks more n more.....

.... think i made up my mind on wat 2 study liao.... hope wont change again.....
.... update later.....

...random...

2008-07-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

... juz came back from e movies.....
.... x files....
... made me wan 2 dig 4 season 1 n 2 rewatch it all over again....
... e scenes are not so distrubing as wat i tot it will b..... lolz.... not much blood.... lucky.....
.... i juz love mulder & scully partnership.....

.... next movie..... the mummy!!!!!.....

.... i finally gt my wii!!!!..... bro sold his to me.... so ok..... gt all e accessories he bought.... lolz....
.... have fun playing some of e games..... trauma centre.... ds is way easier to play....

.... been surfing net n browsing thru comic shops..... so many titles i wan 2 buy.... zzzz.... no money n no space 2 store.... coz all e titles i aiming 4 is super long series.....
.... any1 wif d.gray man, La Corda d'Oro, Fushigi Yugi Genbu Kaiden, Special A..... i wan 2 borrow!!!!....

.... work havnt been smooth for past few weeks.... almost everyday some idiots made me wan 2 go on a killing spree...... for vaild reasons of coz.....
.... hope 2 gt out of tt soon.....

.... sick....

2008-07-24T19:20:00.003+08:00

.... been sick 4 e past few days....
.... amazing.... i recover within 2 days.....
.... lolz.... ppl who noe me know long long i can be sick.....

.... feeling a bit weird thses few days....
.... dunno is due 2 e medication or wat.....
.... been stoning ytd....
.... decide nt 2 stone 2day.... end up make myself photocopy this n tt....
.... every month i will use up 2 1 box of paper..... ( 5 rims.....).... damn.... how many trees had i cut since i join this comp.......zzzzzz.....

.... dunno y.... right hand seem a bit numb.... like no strength like tt.....

... anyway.... next 2 wks is movie wk!!!!!!! x files n the mummy!!!!!
.... been waiting for e whole yr 4 tis 2 movies.....
.... damn.... i wan 2 watch x files all over again!!!!!.....
.... seriously.... i had no idea which season gt me pump up 4 x files....

.... already had a rough plan of wat 2 do in august.....
.... zzzz.... i wan 2 save $$ but somehow i m nt doing so.....
.... cannot resist buying things..... gt purpose or nt will still buy.....
.... past few mths a lot of impulse buying..... damn.... wat is wrong wif me.....

.... anyway.... gt a few drama i wan 2 watch.... heart of greed is sooooo nice!!!!!...
.... tang xin feng bao.... i only started watching e 2nd half of e season..... but it made me gule to e tv..... i dun usually like drama drama type of show..... but tis is really good.....

..... juz read xq blog..... made me wan 2 go on a short vacation again.....
.... haiz.... still think i dun have enough money nor time 2 go.....
.... when can i go thailand, japan..... haiz......

.... shld stop now.... left hand also feel weaks..... -.-

fed up

2008-07-15T13:54:00.002+08:00

everything juz sux!!!!!
nth gone right since last fri!!!!
totally hate tis place!!!!!

dun tell me is part n parcel of life.... it nt working....n wat kind of life is tt u gt 2 swallow everything down even u noe it is nt ur fault....

cant take it anymore.... going 2 look 4 somewhere new..... now in office every single second is a torture....

i dun wan 2 cry myself 2 slp anymore.... had enough

ARGH!!!!!!!

2008-07-11T11:53:00.002+08:00

WARNING!!!!! A VERY ANGRY POST!!!!!

HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!!

HATE THIS DAMN PLACE!!!!!!!

BLOODY IDIOTS!!!!!!!

I DUN CARE LIAO!!!!!!

WAN TO LEAVE SOON!!!!!!!

nth gone right e min i step out of hse!!!!!
shld have take full day leave instead!!!!!
bloody assholes!!!!! go to hell!!!!!
burn in hell for all i care!!!!!!

idiots idiots idiots!!!!!!

....tokidoki crazed....

2008-07-01T21:23:00.004+08:00

... argh!!!!..... i m suffering from tokidoki crazed.....

.... i wan e tees.... but is so damn ex!!!!!....

.... e watches r nice.... but they r more ex then Baby G....

.... anyway.... i m soooooo bad luck 2day......

.... meeting on thurs.....

....pc corrupted..... juz aft i install xp sp 3......

.... sian.... all my data inside.....

.... hopefully can gt e pc back on fri or sat.... if nt i in deep shit.....

.... IT ppl r damn slow.... dunno whether they have collected my pc a nt....

.... if nt i m really in deep shit.....

.... so idiots juz dun understand tt my pc is down n i totally have no access to my email!!!!!....

... n yet he say i m coming up wif an excuse!!!!! damn him!!!!!

... my email can only access thtu my pc!!!! wat e hell u wan me 2 do!!!! hammer e pc up!!!! idiots!!!!!!

.... curse his pc also kenna crash!!!! c how he feels.... IDIOT!!!!!!.....

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Declare broke.....

2008-06-29T19:51:00.011+08:00

.... zzz..... wanted 2 update on taiwan trip.... but photos still gt half wif my bro... so gt 2 wait another 2 mths?....

.... zzzz.... ok.... i m broke.....y?.... i juz came back from taiwan.... n brought a damn lot of goods....
.... including e tokidoki which i love 2 death..... n there is e pc show.... n there is e GSS.... how can i nt b broke!!!!

attached below is 60% of my loots.... the other 40% include food stuff.... gifts..... n other items i cant rmb where i kept them and lazy 2 go dig out....

card holder 4 my cards..... exp!!!!!
name card holder 4 work.... bough 2gt wif e card holder on top.... during tao treat....

...d.gray man thingy n death note stylus... bought in taiwan.... dgm is limited edition.... other than animate branches cant find it elsewhere....
... Saiunkoku hair accessory.... sg had sold out.... lucky me!!!!! .... cant gt onion head.... so end up buying tis msn icon items.... gt comb.... 4gt where i put... lolz....

in need of new belt.... saw tis 2day.... so buy it right away....
e 1st thing i buy in taiwan.... wanted ichigo or rukia... but nt so lucky tot.....
e animal ferris wheel
taiwan native tribe ferris wheel
jewelleries tt i buy frm taiwan....
perfumes which i luv.... last item i buy b4 flying 2 taiwan.... (airport)

MNG tee which i buy in mysia
Astro boy tee 1 of e items i buy within 2 days aft taiwan trip....
doraemon tee bought in taiwan.... exp..... but cute....
stitch!!!!! super big head.... gd pillow when i in taiwan....
my 1st classic teddy.... luv e fur....

... new wallet.... fall in love with it....
tofu slippers!!!!!
ANNA SUI COMB!!!!! .... every1 calls me nuts for buying it so exp....
... another item tt made me fall in love wif.... adidas respect me brass line bag....
the tee 2 go along wif the bag.... or e other way ard.... lolz.....

....TOKIDOKI NANA BELT BUCKLE .... frm comic convention (CC)
.... TOKIDOKI ADIOS EARRING!!!!! SIMPLY LUV IT!!!! (CC)
.... TOKIDOKI CAP.... LUV E COLOUR!!!!! (CC)
... TOKIDOKI CACTUS PUPS WIF BASTARDINO..... funny name.... regret a bit 4 buying it.... lolz..... (CC)

.... my all time fave bear!!!!! GLOOMY!!!!!! limited edition.... i think.... lolz.... e pink 1 sold out!!!!! BOO!!!!!! (CC)
.... THE TOKIDOKI Bag which i been hunting for years.... cute rite!!!!! is the most high value item of all e things i bought..... last item bought in taiwan b4 coming back....
.... ANOTHER TOKIDOKI ITEM.... LOVE IT!!!!! although my bro say it look weird.... (CC)
.... TOKIDOKI RAINBOW!!!!!.... (CC)
.... BEST BUY OF THE LOOTS..... MY FAVE!!!!!! AGAIN.... TOKIDOKI!!!!!! MOMO design.... (CC)
.... TOKIDOKI NANA!!!!!.... LOLZ..... (CC)

juz this 2 days... during e comic convention(CC) i had spend almost 400+.... those show here r juz wat i gt 4 myself.... a lot of other tees r 4 my nephew, sis n sis-in-law. lolz.... my bro also spend a bomb 2day.... HOHOHOHO......

.... ok.... I M NUTS!!!!!!......AND I STILL FEEL I HAVE NOT SHOP ENOUGH!!!!!.....

.... saw tis light purple/pink yukata... wif my fave flower.... SAKURA!!!!!.... i so wanted it!!!! but it cost 300+ juz 4 e yukata.... nt included e bag, slippers n obi..... all add 2gt will cost like 500+?... damn it.....

... btw.... if any1 wanted tokidoki tee n wan 2 buy online tell me!!!!! there is so many tee i want but dun have it in CC.... let's share!!!!!.....

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pictures

2008-05-22T00:45:00.007+08:00

Party deco.... done by me & sis!!!!

Buffet

Gift by my dear poly mates!!!!
1st bouquet.....
part of e present from c&p & co. Shiseido mascara n it's makeup base for mascara
from ervina chew.... lolz....

e very ex present from mum & pa
from sis!
part 2 of e present from c&p & co. inside gt $$$
from astro junior dinie...

from LK & VL

14th & 15th Astro com!
candid wif dear chicky & co.
Mum & Pa
e treasure box....
from Jie Xuan, dinie & nicholas

my birthday cake!
poly mates! missing jasmine....
family potrait!.... missing kevis.... his under e table.... camera shy....
dear relatives!
C&P

shld upload more when i receive e full set of photos.....

Once again.... THX ALL THAT CAME!!!!!

Birthday party

2008-05-22T00:02:00.004+08:00

.... a quick update....

.... 1st of all....

A BIG THX TO ALL THAT CAME TO MY PARTY!!!!!! & THX 4 ALL E PRESENTS!!!!!

.... 2nd......

PPL!!!!! THOSE WIF CAMERA & HAD TAKEN PHOTOS KINDLY SENT TO ME SO I CAN COLLAGE ALL!!!!!

.... 3rd.....

I'm 21!!!!!!

.... ok... lame....

will try 2 upload and sent ur e photos soon..... hopefully by sat.... if nt i dun think i can send any photo soon.... coz going 4 tour!!!! lolz....

.... juz a start off....

.... presents i have received so far!!!!

k.... will try 2 load some grp pic & indiviual present photos later.... time 2 slp.....

disappointment

2008-05-14T19:37:00.001+08:00

... ma was right....
.... do so much for other ppl but wat did i gt in e end....
.... juz a bunch of qns whether is it worth it a nt....

... @ times will think.... ya... it worth it coz they are so dear to me....
.... but time aft time wat i gt is juz disappointment over n over again.....

... so many years had pass n yet no 1 understands me....
... juz make me think.... wat i been doing e past few years is useless....

.... big day in a few days but i m nt looking forward to it....
.... it juz denotes another disappointment....
.... feel like cancelling e whole thing.....

FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-13T16:07:00.002+08:00

SO DAMN FED UP!!!!!!!
WANT TO TAKE PPL ALSO GT TO ASK FOR PERMISSION WAT!!!!!
U THINK U WAN CAN JUZ TAKE LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS!!!!!
WORK HAS ALREADY BEEN ARRANGE BEFOREHAND!!!!!
OF COURSE PPL WILL GET ANGRY IF JUZ GRAB AND GO!!!!1
THE LEAST IS TO INFORM!!!!! WAIT FOR PPL 2 ASK OR FOUND OUT OF COURSE WILL BE ANGRY LAH!!!!!
SOME MORE STILL ACT DUMB!!!!!! OR SHOULD I SAY U R REALLY DUMB!!!!!!!

REALLY HATE THIS PLACE MORE AND MORE!!!!!
IDIOTS!!!!! BAKA!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!

random

2008-05-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

... feel bored....
.... tml still nd 2 work.... so a quick post then....

.... 1 night.... xq suddenly ask me wat i wan 4 my bd.....
.... start 2 think.... wat i wan i dun think they share can afford....
.... y.... it so damn ex!!!!!.....

.... top on my list....
.... Wii!!!!!.....
.... N82.....
.... purple gold, purple grace earrings....
.... new laptop!!!!!....
.... go japan n shop like there is no tomorrow!!!!....

.... tt 4 material wants....
.... wat i wan most is 2 enter local uni....
.... can any1 help me wif tt!!!!!......

... feel so disappointed myself....
.... haiz.....

.... sat go shopping.... buy a lot of anime stuff again....
.... shop 4 party stuff aswell n walk a lot also.....

.... sun go shopping again....
.... then go eat crab!!!!......
.... yummy.....

.... reach hme start 2 pack 4 tour.....
.... depressing tot....

.... 2day.... manager come back.... fel approve.... but nt my al.... sian.....
.... boss nt ard.... dun feel so well 2day.... so whole day stuck in e freaking office....
.... really wan 2 leave e place soon.....

.... shop 4 present aft work....
.... found out bro gt e lastest addition 2 his console....
... make me wan 2 buy wii even more wif a drop in price.... ah!!!!!!

.... ervin go back hme starting from 2day....
.... miss him already!!!!!..... miss playing wif him n kiss him gd nite..... zzzz....

..... shld end now n go dream abt wii.....

quick post...

2008-05-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

... nth much 2 sae....
.... sick again.... indigestion again....
.... sian.... cant eat anything.....
.... on mc also cant rest due to those bastards....
.... tml still nd 2 go back 2 work.....
.... hate e place more n more each day....
.... major changes going on there....
.... totally hate it....

... dunno wat 2 do wif life....
.... pls enlighten me....

... monday blues....

2008-04-21T19:53:00.003+08:00

.... si bei sian.....
.... tot can passby 2day smoothly....
.... end up stupid ppl gt me in deep shit again.....
.... make me feel tt e decision i made was correct aft all....

.... anyway.... flashback on e wkends....

.... fri.... aft work.... go home wif qx a while.... then go astro agm.....
.... total disappointment.....
.... details..... dun bother 2 sae n in no postition 2 comment as well.....

..... aft tt.... go 'tour' e sch.... wif qx, jx n wilson.....
.... sch had change quite a bit..... didnt manage 2 finish touring.....
... stuck @ blk 72..... damn.... students now r so gd life..... they gt a lounge area......
.... sit there n tok till ard 10?.... gossip a bit.... chat off track a bit.... crack some jokes.... lolz....
... aft tt go supper wif dinie n kah heng..... zzzz.... wan 2 eat rojak n chee chong fun.... reach there... close shop liao..... wan eat beancurd wif tang yuan.... tang yuan sold out.... nvm.... manage 2 gt some food.....

.... lolz..... all of us teasing dinie throughout e whole supper..... man.... miss those days.....
... went back ard 11.... reach hme.... ko......

.... sat....

.... wake up by boy boy crys..... ma went out 2 buy lunch.... bo bian.... sis nt @ hme.... so gt 2 sayang him.....

.... pack back.... go cl hse.....
... reach her hse.... go imm take cake.....
.... then take her aunt car all e way 2 changi.....

.... help her prepare.... food also arrive....noorin came.... wa.... she drive..... haha.... i will nv drive....
.... then cl relative came over.... follow by xtina ..... help out a bit..... then start fire..... lolz....
.... damn.... mosquitoes juz luv me.... been sitting beside bayon still kenna bitting by them.... e smoke almost kill me thot.....
.... did something veri stupid..... itchy fingers go press e light switch 4 e bbq pit.... heng... sky still very bright....
..... slowly e rest came.... haha.... poly gang stayed outside most of e time.....
... lolz.... e light switch kenna switch off by another few itchy fingers......
.... during tt time frame..... e food cooked.... no 1 can c wat they cooking....

.... aft tt take photos..... eat cake then most ppl start 2 go off....
... leave us staying over 1....
.... continue 2 bbq.... then play card games till 3+.....
.... zzzz.... play e indian poker..... end up they all target me 2 tang my ears..... coz i e only 1 havnt kenna..... tong super sadist!!!!!

.... leave ard 9 in e morning.... reach tampines.... eat mac... go hme.....
.... suppose 2 slp.... end up do so dl.... sis come back then slp....
.... ma come back eat dinner.... watch anime till 1+ then slp.....

.... zzzz.... shld i find a map 4 my invitation card 4 my party?.... damn.... hard 2 find.... lazy....

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-15T19:04:00.003+08:00

wat more to sae.....

I HATE MY WORK!!!!!!!

Bloody fed up wif e system there

wat e hell is wrong wif e ppl!!!!!!

nth better 2 do????? dismantle e unit 4 wat!!!!! then u pay ah!!!!!!

go on mc 1 day... come back gt 2 clear all those shit!!!!!!!

HAD ENOUGHT OF E FUCKING DAMN PLACE!!!!!!

fight wif contractor over a job i was inform only in e afternoon....
... kns gt ap isit!!!!!

even go on leave also cannot isit!!!!! u go can la find ppl 2 cover u then juz go!!!! i wan go cannot isit!!!!! nag n nag so much 4 wat!!!!! if i go on leave u shld b e 1 covering!!!!! i m doing things of ur lvl idiot!!!!!! big boss sae ok liao u there tok cock 4 wat!!!!!

juz send e freaking letter over!!!!!! @ least i dun have 2 suffer there.....

STAY THERE ANY LONGER WILL DIE OF EXHAUSTION, HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE, STROKE & DEPRESSION!!!!!!

dun care wat ma say liao....
... not going 2 stay whether i gt e letter a nt.... even dun gt in i will nt stay
wat 2 do in e future i decide myself....

.... bottom line....

打死我也不会留下来！就算死也不会死在那里！

cnp gathering...

2008-04-06T01:46:00.002+08:00

....zzzz.... finally can slp in.... n wat e hell i still doing online....
.... cant slp yet... gt 2 send finish e neoprints to xq....

.... meet up wif ch 2day 2 go pai pai....
... go parco a while.... then go collect my watch.... drink bubble tea..... then go pai pai....
.... go anime hse... buy the bleach ex figurine.... lolz.... only 15 bucks.... lolz.... then buy chicken pie.... 2 wait 4 e pie both of us roam ard sunshine plaza 4 20 mins..... shiok!!!!!..... lolz....
.... go cine.... hope 2 find d.gray man figurine set 4 ch bro.... cant find..... then walk 2 orchard mrt....

.... saw sheba there.... haha e place i work 4 still ard but e centre now only left childcare....
.... wait 4 e rest 2 reach....aft tt go far eat.... suppose 2 eat rabbit brand.... end up mix up location....
.... lolz..... on e way 2 far east..... suddenly rain..... lucky gt umbrella..... walk halfway.... umbrella kenna jam inbetween e gap of the car window.... jam e place up.... zzzz..... was laughing my head off....

.... went 2 eat ramenten instead.... ok.... nt as gd as mof.... lolz.....
.... go lucky plaza 2 check out e rabbit brand resturant....
... go back 2 cine.... took neoprint.... so long nv take liao.... lolz....
.... went 2 tcc.... yum yum.... temp ch 2 eat dark devotion.... lolz..... tok abt travel.... marriage n so many other things.... lolz.....
.... walk 2 ps.... on e way back we like a bunch of siao zha bo n ta bo.....
.... so long nv laugh like tt....

.... cant slp.... too full also....
....zzzz.... eat too much 2day.... spend too much.....
.... must save $$$ liao..... if nt next mth again bank no money....
.... go out also nt shiok....

argh!!!!

2008-04-01T21:05:00.002+08:00

... fed up wif work again.....
... tell e idiots tt is nt my scope... yet keep on trying 2 fit me wif info..... r u deaf or wat!!!!... already sae nt our job!!!!!

.... almost fainted on site 2dae.....
.... dun feel well these few days.....
.... morning gt veri giddy..... using wall 4 support e whole day....

.... been called a few times 2day....
.... fed up..... y cant juz tell me all e things n tt it.....
.... feeling giddy liao still make me walk up n down.....
.... gt 2 do ot somemore..... pissed off.....

.... i wan go back 2 sch asap....
.... cant stand it anymore....
.... they expect me 2 split myself in2 6 parts?....
... FE, roller shutter, DR, water coolers, walkthru, PA , FRC..... how e hell 2 do all on e same day, time n wif different grp of ppl!!!!!!.....
.... already make up my mind.... by XXXX will quit e bloody damn place....

... own ppl treat me nice i admit.... but u expect 1 person multi task @ e same time is way too much....
... wif e pay i gting is more frustating....
... pay so little... expect so much......
.... in office there is so many more idling n gting higher pay then me.... y e hell shld i work my health n ass away!!!!!....

.... HAD ENOUGH!!!!!....

shag!!!!!

2008-03-31T21:42:00.002+08:00

....zzzzz..... continuously working 4 3 sats within a mth.....
... tis cycle going 2 go on in june..... die liao la.... so shag!!!!!

.... zzz.... nt in veri gd mood tis few days..... work as usually.... it sucks.... but no is even worse wif an idiot tt dunno how 2 work.... @ least e bird is better than him.... zzzz.... hopefully juz tis 1 mth then no nd 2 ren him liao.....

.... as usual... waiting 4 results.... e only thing tt keep me staying tt is results n my taiwan trip.... hopefully b4 go taiwan can c gd news.... if nt come back c gd news.... if nt.... i juz go find a super thick wall n slam my head in2 it.......

.... everyday only look 4ward 2 c ervin n play wif him.....

.... wahahaha.... he is 1 smart kid.... he already noe how 2 do tracking.... n he is only 2 wks old!!!!!... smart boy!!!.... n he starting 2 recongise voices....... wonder baby.... lolz.....
.... shld load e pics soon.....

.... speaking of babies.... i ask my older nephew, kevis.... did he wan a sibling.... he answer shylyi dunno.... ask him futher he sae i wan a kid brother.... so i can share my boy boy toys wif him..... so cute!!!!!.... he simply adore his cousin now..... lolz.... n already acting like a big brother..... so sweet of him.....

... haha.... kids make me both happy n angry @ times.... but c how they react make me so happy..... haha..... how i can have a niece soon.... lolz.....

holiday!!!!

2008-03-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

... finally can go oversea liao!!!!....
.... tis yr cant go japan... nvm....
.... 2 yrs later... target japan!!!!....

... tis time go taiwan!!!.... 8 days!!!!!
... hopefully can gt a rm by myself....
... had enough of make shift beds.....

死了一了百了

2008-03-19T22:14:00.002+08:00

做人做到这样辛苦有什么意义！！！明明说自己有钱就去，现在就返回！！！
每次都说等两年等两年，过了四五年了还是原地踏步！！！
说过要去这里，要去那里，到现在还是一样，哪里都没去！！！我听腻了！！！

每天在公司都被骂，回到家里向你们倾只会说是这样的啦
用眼泪洗脸有多少次了，离开的念头在脑里闪过好多次，只是想出去散散步，整理好自己的心情，都不可以吗！！！
知道家里的环境不比其他人好，所以自己才说要自己付，这样也不行！！！

我死掉好了！！什么都不用想了！！！可以省很多钱好了！！！不用在花钱了啦！！！

... busy wkend....

2008-03-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

.... zzzz.... so tire....

.... sat aft work.... rush 2 jp 2 look 4 gift 4 ervin....
.... finally decide 2 buy cross stitch n do a pic 4 him....
.... still thinking when finish shld frame it or make in2 a bag....
... mayb gt help from aunt!.... lolz.....

.... sis come back from kk ard 3.... quickly help ma prepare zhu jiao chu 4 her... lazy 2 go pilates...:p....
.... haf hr later... sis colleagues start 2 visit her....
.... buy helping sis/ma.....
.... cant take my eyes off ervin!!!.... he is so cute!!!!!
.... jie fu still very excited.... LOLZ....

... sis.... wake up... ma sae sis n jie fu go jb.... power sia....
... ervin under ma care.... he is so cute!!!!.....
.... went 2 nus open hse.... lolz... me n cl was swarm by hall 'fellows'.....
.... gt some goodies.... come back... sis wan... end up i gt 2 myself...

.... ard 12+.... leave nus then go taka myself 2 help sis gt some bb stuff....
.... raining.... sian.... take 502 back... slp on bus.... almost miss stop....
.... do a bit of cross stitch.... ma sae wan 2 bath ervin.... then c....
.... lolz..... ervin serve ma 'tea'..... lolz.....
.... evening go jp wif sis n jie fu.... buy more baby stuff...
... come back ervin drinking milk... he look @ me e whole time .... lolz...
... then sis changing diapers.... he serve tea again... LOLZ....

... zzz... gt 2 go back 2 work tml.... i hate it.... frm tis wk on.... will b veri xiong liao....
... every sat gt 2 go back till end of mth.... totally hate tis job....

.... back 2 my cross stitch... hope 2 finish asap....

... baby Ervin....

2008-03-14T20:29:00.005+08:00

.... after giving sis 6hr+ of pain....

... Baby Ervin was born 2day!!!!!....

.... 14/03/08, 1347.... 2.92kg.... 42cm tall?

... haha... super active.... n cry really loud.... luv 2 play wif saliva..... lolz.... shld go n see him tml.... hope he n sis can come hme tml!!!!!

...

2008-03-13T13:43:00.002+08:00

... bad day.... starting to have tots whether m i suitable 4 tis field....
.... been crying since morning.... super stress out....
... juz wan to gt e hell out of here asap....
.... dunno how long can i long....

...laundry day....

2008-03-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

... took off 2dae...
... went shopping wif ma.... zzzz... wear e croc shoes.... give me blisters again....

.... reach hme... bear laundry....
.... raining outside.... but heck care.....
.... my bears need 2 bath!!!!.....

.... took me more than 3 hrs 2 wash all....
... dip them all in hot water... 2 kill germs.... then in2 e washing machine....
.... 1st time.... 2 many bears.... machine go wacky.... threw 1 of my bears out...
.... zzzz hope they will dry tml.... i wan my bears.....

.... still gt 2 more bears.... tml then wash.....
.... 1 i nd 2 hug 2 slp.... e other is veri ex.... gt 2 b extra careful wif it....

....zzz... back 2 work tml.... SIAN!!!!

...zzzz....

2008-03-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

.... busy wkend....

.... fri take haf day... nt feeling very well...... rest @ hme a while then go out wif qx....
... went it show.... zzzz... bankrupt..... spend 400+.....
... went 2 kenko 4 fish spa..... @ sg flyer there..... price ok....

.... sat.... went out wif cl.... meet her go it show.... again..... bought bluetooth ear pc.....
... go mof eat... super full....

... sun.... went taka wif sis.... baby fair......
.... buy hp pouch..... went over 2 suntec.... again..... help papa bring tv back....
.... spend e whole evening seting up new tv in e living rm.... n my rm....
.... still in a horrible mess.... dun feel like packing until i can think of a way 2 make stupid cables neat.....

... rule no. 1....

2008-03-05T23:54:00.002+08:00

short post 2day... back from the movies..... thx my 4 e tix!!!.....
... overall.... ok lor..... a bit confusing.... scaring meter.... mild.... lolz

.... cant sae all if nt it will kill e movie.... lolz.....

.... hope can slp 2nite wif a very full stomach n veri bad cough n dripping nose....

... hungry?....

2008-03-04T21:23:00.003+08:00

.... does they look yummy?.... saw the earrings @ the bazzar in sch 2day.... cant resist to buy them... they look so cute.....

... bad day @ work.... dun wish 2 tok abt it....

.... watching movies tml.... die die also must left on time... dun care....

... teddy bears!!!!!.....

2008-03-03T21:51:00.004+08:00

.... juz now blackout.... reason.... i broke the pin when changing e lamp.... end up gt 2 change e whole fitting.... pa & bro-in-law change.... half way.... tripped.... poor pc..... gt 2 restart..... chat wif ch.... feel a bit better.....

feeling bore.... decided to take photos of my bears!!!!!

latest addition to e family... cutie stitch!!!!

e most ex bear i have... yet... lolz..... gd quality!!!!..... "wat u looking @" face

given to me my my astro mates on my 19th bd!!!! KON-SAMA!!!!

my mokonas... white 1 given by my cnp friends on my 19th bd... black 1 is 2 accompany e white 1... lolz....

unexpected present from tong last yr.... super heng 2 catch it n he give me.... love e pooh bear!!!!.....

e most impt bear of all!!!! my teddy!!!!! cant slp wifout him.... i DO wash it!!!!

still gt a lot more... will slowly post them online..... nose nt feeling well again.... gt 2 slp....zzzzz

... bad start 4 e week....

2008-03-03T19:37:00.002+08:00

.... moody.... 1. e weather.... 2. early morning kenna reprimaned 4 something which i have no knowledge of. 3. almost killed myself 4 times in a row...

.... 4 god sake... it only mon.... till fri still gt 4 more days.... try 2 survive till then....

.... 2ward end of e day... e birdface then tell me i was wrongly scolded tis morning.... y e hell didnt he stand up when i gt scolded n when starting 2 let go then he bring it up again.... haiz....

.... e other angels ask me 2 try out e post... dunno whether shld i ..... haiz.... dunno wat 2 do wif my life now.... juz feel like everything is going downhill....

... juz notice 1 thing during inspection 2dae.... is it me or is it really guys r getting more n more girly?..... it was raining e whole aftnoon... finally stop raining... we go rooftop 2 check.... suddenly downpour..... run 4 shelter.... rain subside.... drizzling.... go down to grd level 2 check inlet.... e guy is unwilling 2 gt wet when i a girl dun mind.... wat e hell.....

.. tml gt a long list of things 2 do again.... feeling veri fed up..... wondering if i can last all e way till my dream come true.... haiz....

...rainy day....

2008-03-02T18:10:00.003+08:00

...zzz.... been raining 4 a few days.... so boring....

.... went to imm ytd to trade in modem... dunno it is me or wat... e speed still e same.... @ least now it is smaller.....

went to orchard 2 day... die die also wan 2 buy e puma shoes.... aft going 2 a few shops finally found it!!!!! wanted 2 buy card holder... but couldnt find new 1....

zzz.... frm tml will b a busy day.... sian!!!!!

..L change e world...

2008-02-23T22:15:00.003+08:00

... juz back from e movie.... awesome.... death note lovers gt 2 watch wif an open mind.... lots of surprises.....

... bravo to actor Kenichi Matsuyama.... he nv fail 2 amaze me on how he act as L....entertaining... shldnt sae too much or it will spoil e fun.... lolz.... but take note dun go aft e credits start appearing.... there is more to it....

....hmm.... been so long since i enjoy myself @ e movies.... munching popcorns.... laughing out loud.... shld do tt more often.....

.... next few movies on my list.... horror movie... think is call the 1st rule or something.... e 1 which fiona xie is in it... think she is a ghost or wat.... next is 10,000 b.c...... n the mummy 3.... n also the leap yr...... any1 interested?... lolz....

zzzzz.... bad bad bad....

2008-02-19T22:39:00.003+08:00

zzzz.... past few days nt nt gd 4 me @ all..... e only happy day i gt is on sun.... although 1st part of e day sucks.... happy shopping aft tt.....zzzz... spend 100+ on a wallet, 50+ on a tee, almost spend 70+ on shoe n 50+ on GO game.... end up nv.... bank no money liao.... sob.... already pre-spend my pay....

... mon n 2day is so busy..... hopefully tml wont..... chating online juz now.... zzz juz figure out... damn.... tis yr gt many ppl 21..... bank no money.... how.... gt 2 source 4 catering 4 my party also.... big headache..... gt tis 2 consider tt 2 consider.... sian!!!!.... dun feel like planning liao.....

e only thing tt make tis wk passable is fri.... coz i going 2 watch L movie!!!!!!! cant wait 4 it..... seriously.... i m addicted 2 death note.... practically watch e anime, read e comic n watch e movie.... wat next?.... juz glad tt i dun buy e items.... if nt i m broke.... which again... is nt new....

.... dun care me..... juz moody....

horrible day!!!!!

2008-02-15T17:56:00.003+08:00

... argh!!!!!.... tot reach hme can have a peace of mind....
.... some1 juz have 2 spoilt it!!!!!....

.... wat is e prob wif ppl 2dae!!!!!.....
things inside my room is wat i save/earn by myself n i pay 4 it... so wat is e prob tt u keep on have 2 bug in!!!!!
it is nt tt i reach out my hand n say hey i wan 2 buy this give me money!!!!!

i juz dun get it!!!! all e comics, figurines i buy using my own saving n money which i earn myself... i dun c u gt any rights to stop me from buying it n more throw them away!!!!!

@ least e things i buy can last a lifetime.... i dun waste it on things tt u can only experience n nt gt it!!!! so wat is e prob!!!!!....

... u gt ur hobby i gt mine!!!!! i dun interfer wif ur hobbies n y shld u!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!! TODAY IS JUZ NOT MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE IT!!!!!!!

bloody day!!!

2008-02-15T14:31:00.001+08:00

.... argh!!!!.... lunch is juz over n i gt so much 2 complain already!!!!!.... really hate it here..... so fed up wif some ppl here.... tok big but noe nuts!!!!!..... waste ppl time!!!!!....

.... idiot bird juz ask me 2 create database 4 F.E...... @ 1st tell me do bit by bit everyday.... now wan 2 2 create it asap!!!!... think i superhuman ah!!!!! my eyes also need a break lor!!!!! n think i gt nth else 2 do ah!!!!! damn piss off!!!!!.....

.... another 1.... F.E used up ytd now then tell me!!!!! where gt time 2 refill!!!!!! idiot.....

... super hate tis place!!!!... wan 2 get out of here asap!!!!!!

i hate my nose!!!!

2008-02-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

.... argh!!!!!..... block nose e whole day!!!!!!.... cant eat med coz it will cost drowsiness!!!!!..... damn it!!!!..... every mth block like tis make me wan 2 go 4 surgical 2 correct the inner nose!!!!!..... coz inside e gland or watever u call it, is slightly crooked.... thx 2 e trauma i experince when i was a kid.... argh!!!!!!.... even vic is nt working anymore!!!!!

.... zzz.... 2 day is juz nt my day.... other than e freaking block nose, my shoes causing me blisters.... ma sae i walk weird wif this pair.... of course!!!!.... i gt blister on e inner side of both legs.... how 2 walk normally..... dun think i going 2 wear tt 4 a long time.... juz stick wif my old shoes.....

.... argh.... my stomach is feeling so weird aft lunch.... mayb e food dun go well wif my stomach.... it feel like inner muscle stretch.... wif acid being tumbling inside.... feel like throwing up.... but nth come up.... up also cannot down also cannot.... plain torture!!!!!!.......

... juz hope it is only 2day i feel horrible.... if nt i gt 2 eat e antibotics..... which i hate.... eat too much my body now resistance 2 it liao.... haiz......

new skin!!!!

2008-02-11T20:34:00.000+08:00

wahaha... nothin better 2 do... change blog skin....
add some new features also.... not so gloomy liao....

... happy news....... ma sae i can have a small party if i wan 4 my 21st bd!!!!..... lolz....
.... chalet confirm out liao.... budget.... so having party @ hme!!!...... most likely buffet ba.... same as my bro n sis.... lolz..... sponsership.... c ma they all willing a nt... if nt gt 2 pay myself..... lolz.... invitation list shld be out by mid april.... lolz.....

... tot of celebrating 2gt wif qx.... but chalet too ex.... n e no. of ppl inviting difference by a lot.... so cant work.... nvm.... coz my celebration is on e 17th may... aft tt countdown 4 qx!!!!!.... we agree on tt le... lolz....

.... still sick.... tml nd 2 go back work.... zzzz... on mc also dun give me peace... damn it....

damn it...

2008-02-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

zzz..... ytd cant slp @ all.... all thx 2 my blocked nose & new pillow...
went 2 c e doc e 1st thing in e morning.... damn it... i reach e clinic aft 5 mins it had open... my q no. is already 11..... n damn..... gt 2 wait till almost 11am then reach my turn!!!!!..... really hate it... gek poh gt 3 clinic n only 1 is open 2day..... i pity those tt come aft me.... they gt 2 wait 4 more than 2hrs 2 c e doc....

some interesting thing happen in e clinic when i was waiting 4 my q......
.... 1 lady... i think she gt stomach flu.... her hubby was accompanying her.... e 'nurse' ask them 2 go n rest in another rm... they r 3-4 ppl ahead of me.... e doc went over to check on them.... when i finish doc.... they r still in e rm.... wow.....

..... 1 whole family was in e clinic when i reach.... their maid was e 1 tt needs e doc..... n guess wat e rest is doing... kids play games.... mom n dad juz jolly well sit in e overcrowded clinic, waiting 4 their maid!!!!!.... damn fed up wif them.... cant they c another family wif a veri sick toddler tt urgently need 2 sit down!!!!!... hell wif these ppl... kids n themselve is healthy, yet put them all in a place where patients need 2 rest..... there is so many other places they can get their kids down n wait while mayb e ma accompany e maid!!!!!

.... another family..... younger daughter appear very unwell.... older sister join in e fun.... dad keep on popping in n out of e clinic.... mom busy chatting wif e nurse.... n keep moving ard e clinic as well.... younger sis keep on puting her legs wif shoes on, on e seats infornt of her... n keep on moving non-stop... n i really mean non-stop!!!!!! n when i sae she is a younger sis... she is @ least a 17 yr old kid!!!!!! to me... she totally gt no manners!!!!! no matter how unwell u appear... u r not suppose 2 make e clinic look like ur home.... put ur smelly legs on e seats n keep on moving ard, kicking e seats!!!!..... for god sake.... u r not a 7 yr old kid!!!! n worst of all, e mom was all along in e clinc!!!! she did nt even bother 2 educate her 17 yr old daughter on basic manners!!!!!.... wat e hell is wrong wif these ppl!!!!!.....

... e q gets longer.... an auntie tot she can jolly well jump e q..... BAD MOVE!!!!!!.... 1) she juz had 2 wait 4 2 more ppl b4 her.... 2) e clinic is full of sick patients.... 3) wat she did make every 1 is staring @ her really hard.... 4) it my turn next!!!!!!.... i had wait 4 2 whole hrs n she juz came in like 1/2 hr n she try 2 jump every1 q.... idiots......

.... finally my turn.... haha.... e doc is still so friendly.... compare with his colleague he is way much better.... @ least he chat n joke wif his patients.... unlike e rest..... haha... prescribe some med.... lolz.... he tried 2 listen 4 my lungs.... but i cant breathe wif a block nose n a therometer in my mouth!!!!.... he gt 2 redo again my temp is taken.....he still treat me like a kid..... lolz..... which i dun mind.... i been visiting him almost every time i gt sick until recent years..... ever since i was in pri sch.... @ least 13 yrs liao.... haha.... still e best doc i been 2 so far.... gt some antibotics.... zzzz... i hate tt stuff..... n also gt mc 4 tml..... hopefully tues go back work, dun c a big pile of work on e desk....

.... time 2 slp..... b4 e med effect totally wear off....

Clamp in 3D Land pics

2008-02-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

zzz.... nth 2 do... been saying wan 2 upload my figurine pic till now still havnt... anyway... here goes!!!!!

Clamp in 3D Land Vol. 1

-Sakura (Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNICLE) サクラ『ツバサ -RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE-』

-Yuuko (xxxHolic) 壱原侑子『xxxHOLiC』

-Chii / Elda (Chobits) ちぃ(エルダ)『ちょぴっツ』

-Syaoran (Card Captor Sakura) 李小狼『カードキャプターさくら』

-Kazahaya (Gohou Drug) 栩堂風疾『合法ドラッグ』

Clamp in 3D Land Vol. 2

-Yasha-ou (RG Veda) 夜叉王『聖伝』

-Dark Chii / Freya (Chobits) フレイヤ『ちょぴっツ』

-Syaoran (Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNICLE) 小狼『ツバサ -RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE-』

-Hikaru (Angelic Layer) ヒカル＋鈴原『ANGELIC LAYER』

-Rikuo (Gohou Drug) 火群陸王『合法ドラッグ』

Clamp in 3D Land Vol. 3

-Ashura (RG Veda) 阿修羅『聖伝』

-Kimihiro Watanuki (xxxHOLiC) 四月一日君尋『xxxHOLiC』

-Hinata Asahi (Suki. Dakara Suki) 旭ひなた『すき。だからすき』

-Sumomo & Kotoko (Chobits) すもも＆琴子『ちょびっツ』

-Subaru Sumeragi (Tokyo Babylon) 皇昴流『東京BABYLON』

Clamp in 3D Land Vol. 4

-Tomoyo Daidouji (Card Captor Sakura) 大道寺知世『カードキャプターさくら』
-Akira Ijuyin (20 Mensho Ni Onegai!!! ) 伊集院玲『20面相におねがい!!』

-Kohaku (Wish) 琥珀『Wish』

-Seishirou Sakurazuka (Tokyo Babylon) 桜塚星史郎『東京BABYLON』
-Shizuka Doumeki (xxxHOLiC) 百目鬼静『xxxHOLiC』　

Clamp in 3D Land Vol. 5

-Chun Hyang (Shin Shunkaden) 春香『新・春香伝』
-Miyuki (Miyuki-Chan in Wonderland) 美幸『不思議の国の美幸ちゃん』

-Utako Okawa (20 Mensho Ni Onegai!!! ) 大川詠心『20面相におねがい!!』
-Takeshi Shukaido (CLAMP Gakuen Tokkei Duklyon) 秋海洞威『学園特警デュカリオン』

-Fay D. Flourite(Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNICLE)ファイ・D・フローライト『ツバサ－RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE－』

here wat i had 4 tis series... still waiting 4 vol 6, 7 n 8... gt 1 special SD 1... vampire faye/eyepatch faye... cant gt it in sg... coz e suppiler side dunno wat they doing... some give pamplet some dun put in... end up veri hard 2 get... only in japan gt... but cost 15000 yen... tt was when i last seen it.... think e price will go higher.... sob... i so wan it....

new year eve!!! but....

2008-02-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

super sian!!!! stuck @ work till 1... a lot of office not open... how 2 work.... sian ah..... my contractors also not working 2dae.... how 2 work.....

surf net, check blogs & found this frm xq blog... since nth 2 do, might as well entertain myself 4 e time being...

***Your Birthdate: May 20***
You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.
Your strength: Your warm heart
Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions
Your power color: Black
Your power symbol: Musical note
Your power month: February
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/

i dunno wat your think.... but rather true.... esp gloom can be contagious part....
... think is time 2 reflect.....

zzzz.... past few days... been trying 2 enroll.... system down... pc version dun match.... blah blah blah.... finally can register, wan 2 print the script.... printer gt serious paper jam.... damn.... try 2 clear e jam.... printer parts start coming out tgt.... offically spoilt e printer!!!!..... lucky sis have a spare 1.... give it 2 me(hope she nt going 2 ask back)... while setting up e new printer.... found out tt wow.... there is an access panel tt u can clear ur paper jam!!!!!..... damn it....

think tis is e second time i spoilt a printer..... damn fed up....

time is passing super slow.... sian ah!!!!!....

hope tis new yr can gt more gatherings.... a lot of ppl like long time no see liao.... HELLO PPL!!!! can we have a gathering!!!!! i miss you all!!!!!

zzz... as usual... juz a random update.... hope 2nite gt time 2 post some photos

brain dead

2008-01-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

past few days havnt been gd @ all... @ times will feel like find 1 corner n juz stone.... feel like crying also.... juz hate it...

work havnt been smooth.... technicians giving prob.... internal n external.... feel like handing in e letter soon.... everyday gt back hme... feeling so empty....

y e hell do i have 2 b responsible for things tt is nt my fault.... been trying 2 gt them 2 b responsible for their own things n yet it fail... tried soft approach n hard approach already... wat else can 1 try....

been dragging myself 2 work everyday.... gt rattle off by ppl.... been dump to do things tt is way beyond my level.... sae wat support me... dun add on 2 my job load 我就谢天谢地，了不知道还能熬多久！

大嫌い！！！神様！お願い！助けて！これ仕事わ苦しいです！！

bloody weather!!!!

2008-01-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

zzzz... office aircon still nt serviced..... freaking hot right now!!!!.... haiz dunno y i gt a bugging feeling something going 2 happen... sick n tire of here liao.... last wk wasnt gd 4 me @ all..... lucky mr kok come back liao... most of my qns had been answered.....

haiz.... ytd meet up wif astro ppl.... maybe later then blog.... when i end work n reach hme tt is.... now juz feeling grumpy..... haiz.....

.... how later meeting wont b too long.... still gt work 2 do.... n i gt 2 write e minutes.... hate it when they tok ard the bush b4 gt 2 e pt.....

hopefully later internal meeting will produce some results.... haiz....

seriously thinking of doing wat most had done.....tiuq..... haiz.....

sucky day...

2008-01-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

wat e hell is wrong wif the weather tis few day!!!! office aircon breakdown... sat then gt ppl come 2 service.... die liao la!!!!

2day is nt a gd day 4 quite a no. of ppl i noe.... myself as well.... tio complaints....名誉扫地 liao.... Juz hate myself.... cant put all e blame on others... haiz.... xq, ch n qx... i wan 2 join ur soon!!!!!.... haiz.....

no use complaining here.... e story is too long to b type out.... n i dun wan 2 type till 12am still havnt finish complaining... i still wan 2 post other things n watch anime 1!!!! lolz....

1 n 1/2 more days n i will b free from tis sucky wk!!!!! pray hard it will nt gt any worse than tis few days!!!!!

-clamp in 3d land-

ytd night do a bit of packing n cleaning.... trying 2 find place 2 display my figurines.... couldnt find it... yet... lolz..... haha.... like wat they sae... my rm gt too many things n too little place for displaying items....

anyway.... play wif my camera.... n wow..... i didnt noe my camera can take sure gd quality photos..... cant post it now... too many n take too long... hope 2 post it when i gt vol 2... @ least.... haiz....

bloody weather!!!

2008-01-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

WTH... e weather is freaking hot!!!!..... dehydrated.... bitten by freaking mosquitoes... almost fainted in office..... e weather just sucks.....

.... work had nt been smooth since mon..... hell wif tt..

juz found out tt 1 of my frenz going oversea 2 study.... haiz.... i wan 2 go back to sch too....

haiz.... new yr coming... but no mood....

2008-01-15T13:31:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!

So pissed off @ work!!!!!
things juz gt 2 come @ the same time!!!!
hate it!!!!
wan 2 faster go back to sch!!!!!

CLAMP in 3-D LAND!!!!!

2008-01-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

... okay....
... i m nuts abt this series of figurine....
... y?.... here a no. of reasons:
1) they are CLAMP production!!!!!!
2) SD form!!!! (just in case those how dunno wat it stands for... super deform... coz it gt a huge head n small body... )
3) super KAWAII!!!!!!!

.... end of story.....

... nt quite....
.... past few weeks been searching everywhere i noe 4 this collection....
... total 8 vol will be release by end of this yr i think.....
.... 5 vol had been release.... so far i only had vol 1 and vol 3.....
... still searching for vol 2 and 4 .... super hard to find.....
.... can only find online..... which cost a lot more then u can buy locally....
.... due to shopping cost n blah blah blah..... but cant even buy when they only accept paypal....
.... which i cant even apply 4!!!!!.... damn it.....
... gt 2 continue my search.... or can any1 help me buy on ebay or going to taiwan/hk/japan????.....

.... past wk had been tiring....
.... imagine.... me an owl..... slp b4 9pm.....
.... dunno y.... come back from genting been so tired....
.... work also nt smooth.....
.... REN!!!!!!.... @ least till june.... hopefully......
..... haiz.... wonder if my limit can b stretch till tt long.....

.... went out wif xq 2day....
.... haha.... drag her out in my search of figurine....
.... LOLZ..... we chat the whole journey.....
.... let c.... from the min we board the bus.... till we part @ jp.....
.... 7 hrs!!!!!!...... lolz..... so much to tok!!!!!!
.... haha.... complain to her abt work....
.... tok abt relationship.....
..... playing wif soft toy @ action city.... (the green apple still the best!!!!! it can shake the head most naturally!!!!! LOLZ)
.... went to bugis n finally bought a mug!!!!....
... been wanting 1 for soooooo long since the last 1 broke.....
.... preious moment!!!!!.....

.... hmm.... xq sae my rm has become a exibition rm liao....
.... wif my figurines and soft toys..... lolz.....
.... maybe some day i will post online my collection....
.... in the making..... LOLZ....

.... reach hme try 2 apply for posb debit card....
.... damn.... the webbie gone mad.... been trying 4 hrs.....
... wonder when can i gt all the full vol of clamp..... sob.....

.... shld stop now.... tml still gt some stupid meeting 2 attend....
.... can some 1 in the office juz kill the bird n the asshole?.... and also juz burn down the office outside our.... if possible.... burn down the whole estate.... yahoo!!!!!

updates....

2007-12-26T10:52:00.000+08:00

.... long time no update again....
.... no mood la....

.... nov.... nth much.....
.... dec.... lynn left our team.... zzz....
.... enjoy listening to her stories.....
.... juz came back from genting....
.... nt veri enjoyable....
.... qx was sick.... then ch last min ps!!!!....
.... went there nth much 2 buy also.... buy some gifts back only....

.... 25 dec.... slp the whole day.... i wanted to do tt....
.... but meeting xq early to go karin hse....
.... go market there buy hp cover.... then xq dad drive us to karin hse coz raining...
.... if we go on foot both will dunno fall down how many times liao... lolz...
... reach her hse... every1 nt there.... zzz..... wait till hungry.... 2 hrs... sian ah....

... aft dinner, c photos, stay a while then go back wif xq....
.... tok quite a lot of things... lolz... we even walk the pathway of hyss... brings back memories....
.... y e hell e sch didnt think 4 us when we r still in sch!!!! everytime rain we gt 2 dash to the traffic light!!!!.... kids these days are so blissed.....

.... nth much 2 do here in office.... waiting 4 contraactor 2 come in only.... haiz....
.... even my email also give me prob... sian.....

sian sian

2007-10-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

zzz... long time no update...
lazy.... come back from work already veri time.... on pc also juz 4 a few hrs....
.... no pt 2 sit there n think of wat 2 write....
... lolz....

.... haiz.... now is like live 1 day pass 1 day.... no aim.... e only aim is start work faster end work.... go hme stick to ma n pa like glue..... lolz..... if sis @ hme also stick 2 her like glue.... mindset still nt mature..... zzzz..... juz wan 2 go back 2 sch days..... i wan 2 study!!!!.....

... almost 3 mths liao... still trying 2 gt use to working life....
.... still nt use to it yet... my mind is still thinking of going back to sch....
... haiz....

.... work so far ok lor.... dun gt in2 trouble everydat happy liao....
.... do expect too much....
.... wif colleague still ok... juz tt sometime feel veri helpless....

.... manage 2 gt off on fri....
... to settle 4 my future....
.... nt going 2 sae here... u nv noe who reading ur blog....
.... hahaha.... didnt manage 2 gt a gd rest....
... still feel tire....

... just came back from cooking session 2day....
... again.... late dinner.... now gt prob slping....
... feeling full 2 e extend of feel like puking...
.... have fun making sushi....
.... gt 2 make my fave type of sushi!!!!.... tofu sushi....
.... will nv gt sick of eating tt... n also potatoes!!!!.....
.... lolz.... have fun making it... n also i make maki sushi....
.... although i didnt eat tt... but still presentable n edible!!!....
.... if can i wan 2 make my own sushi 4 sis 2 eat....
.... hard work but @ least is cheaper n u can put watever u wan inside....
... have fun recalling those times also.... whoever present 2day will noe.... lolz....

.... k... making those who read more n more blur liao....

.... zzz... although still gt like 7 more mths... thinking of wat 2 do on my 21st bd le...
.... tis yr quite disappointed.... those who i confide in noe wat happen... dun wish 2 tok abt it le....
.... haiz... tis yr like tt i dun think i wan 2 celebrate next yr 1... 2 prevent a disappoint again....
.... every yr juz gt more n more disheartening.....

... but @ least tis yr 1 nt a total diappointment....
... @ least i gt 1 close pals celebrate 4 me... haha.... think abt it.... tis is e 1st time ur celebrate 4 me.... so touch!!!!... like e present ur give me... till now still dun bear 2 use it.... lolz.... already can hear ur -_-'' n sae " buy 4 u 2 use u dun use!!!!" lolz..... too cute 2 use it!!!!.... wahahahaha......
.... zzz.... missed ur guys already.... when can we go out again!!!! i miss kbox wif ur!!!!.....

..... zzzz ...... ok.... i'm bored.... lolz..... starting 2 anyhow write again liao....
.... btw.... my rm gt new addition again!!!!.... new pc n new pc table.... qx c liao.... lolz....
..... zzzz. damn sian.... gt 2 wait till 1am then i can heard 周公讲鬼.....
.... those where dun dare 2 hear ghost story 1 shld listen.... coz their story is really gd.... n it helps 2 train ur guts also.... nt so scary most of e times.... juz nice.... lolz..... 15 more mins.... lolz....

.... update e next time ba.... prepare 2 listen liao.... lolz....

updates...

2007-08-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

zzzz.....
waiting 4 ma n pa 2 come back from wake.....
cant slp.....

tv nth 2 watch... game also nth new 2 play.... anime n comic also e same....
life getting boring.....

anyway... updates.....

complete child care job in may.... didnt wan 2 continue coz e working hrs sux....
... rot 4 nearly 1 mth..... then go china wif ma n pa.....
... ok..... took a lot of photos.... imagine.... i only develop 800+ photos.... still gt another 200+ didnt develop.....
.... buy a lot of shawl..... lolz..... nt all 4 me la.... only gt 2 4 myself..... e rest give 2 sis n sis-in-law n others....

..... sad thing.... didnt make it 2 both uni.....
.... nvm.... try again next yr.....

.... anyway... now working @ my iap company.....
.... ppl there ok.... juz tt when i hit e nail... i gt veri limited help.... coz my jobscope is so different from e rest.... haiz.... haha.... station @ ntu thou.....

use tis as a training grd.... like wat my colleagues sae.....
.... hopefully i can adpt to it soon..... dun wan everyday go work depress....
... tis go on any longer i sure kenna depression.....

.... last few mths b4 getting e job.... in 'depression'.....
.... wan 2 study so badly.... only regret y last time didnt put in more effort....
... too late 4 regrets le.... try again next yr.....

... just read some of e blogs....
.... recall all e memories we had in poly.... in sec sch....
.... how i wish i can re live them all over again....
.... even thou been thru some horrible experience....
... but 1 thing 4 sure....
... i nv regret knowing u all.....
... hold u all dear to my heart....
... k.... tis sooooo dun sound like mi..... LOLZ.......

... looking 4ward cing ur soon....
... been mia 4 quite some time also....

... next time 2 look out 4 is jap fest next wk!!!....
... finally... last yr miss out.... tis yr hopefully can enjoy!!!...
... manage 2 put xq, sis n bro-in-law 2 go!!!....
... hopefully can rent yukata!!!!.... lolz....

... speaking of my sis.... i going 2 b aunt again soon!!!!
... haha... ma was so happy.... now if only bro can ganbatte also.... LOLZ.....

... enough updates le... anyway no 1 read my blog....
... since i havnt been updating regularly....
... watever i write in e upper portion ur can c then tt it....
... u will hardly c me saying tt out in words....
... lolz!!!!!....

zzzzz....

2007-05-25T17:03:00.000+08:00

wat a day......
ytd was chaotic....
shldnt sae anymore....

2dae no better.....
nd 2 go down orchard 2 hand in timesheet....
so damn tire now.... zzzz still gt another 5 more days 2 go.... hopefully can last.....

e only i going 2 miss here is some of e tchers n e babies.... all so cute but @ times yet so argh!!!!!
lolz..... hope can gt in2 nus.... gt new laptop..... gt new hp..... n gt ds...... zzzzz......
once ma give e green light.... i can gt ds.....
pray hard hard..... lolz....

actually come 2 think of it.... it kinda gd 2 have ma 2 control my spending..... on games tt is....
haha.... if i go gt games wifout her permission.... she n pa will nag nag nag 4 mths....
once she sae ok then she gt nth 2 complain abt....
also kinda build up my relationship wif her also...... hard 2 explain.....
lolz.....

futhermore.... psp games r starting 2 gt limited.... in dl n buy....
psp game too ex 2 buy.... then dl also nt much i can play....
ppl dun seed i can dl.... n memory space nt enough le.....zzzzz

zzzzz..... GSS in here again.... yet i cant go shopping tis wkend.....
haiz..... funny.... @ 1 moment i feel like going oversea..... e next i dun feel like it.....
mayb coz e place i going is nt where i hope 2 b?..... no idea......
haiz..... when can i ever go 2 japan n US........ haiz.....

.... another thing..... when is e anime i wan 2 watch coming out!!!.....
comics also like tt.... anime also like tt..... then those i wan 2 watch either mia or license.... sian ah.... life start 2 gt boring when all e entertainment start 2 die down..... zzzzz

updating

2007-05-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

zzzz... so long nv update liao.... 2 main reason... working n sian....
anyway... my contract ending soon... end of tis month.... now juz wait 4 e FREAKING DAMN NUS LETTER!!!!!..... juz hope will b able 2 study.... zzzzz.....

e only thing i going miss tis workplace is e babies.... they r so damn cute!!!!.... shld post e photos when i upload 2 my pc.....

anyway, juz pass my 20th bd...... thinking of next yr..... sian..... those close 2me shld noe y... shld nt discuss it here... lolz......

sick 2 update on e past 3 mths, shld juz statee main events in brief.... here goes....
- feb, end of iap n graduation photo shoots.... messy in both event....zzzzz.
- march, start part-time job in childcare centre..... everything new.... e babies r sooooo kawaii!!!!!
- april, sis b day, cl b day, new colleague..... everything goes smooth, wif a few big bumps along e way.....
- may, cnp chalet, karin, qx n my bd.... veri emo month.....haiz.... some will noe..... shldnt speak here.....
-end-

.... like real.....

ok..... happy event 1st.....

17th may..... meet up wif tong @ bugis 1st.... go sim lim 2 collect my MIA mp3....

shld explain y MIA... lolz....send it 4 repair on 20/3.... they sae they will call 2 wks later... end up nv call in e end... so gt 2 go there personally 2 gt it.... zzzzz.....

reach there they move shop.... a stores away... zzzzz..... nvm.... then show e girl e recipt.... she then tell me nd 2 pay 15 bucks 2 gt it back.... wth.... nv state b4 hand n still under warranty lor..... zzzzz.... no choice gt 2 pay.... gd thing is they change a brand new 1 4 me.... tis time wif speaker @ e back.... so next time now nd 2 bring speaker.....

go anime hse.... things i wan no stock.... then gt some.... didnt wan 2 buy yet..... raining.... damn sian.....

go bugis village 2 buy e bag i saw wif xq a few days b4.... tokidoki design... tot is nt authenic 1.... but nvm.... like it so much.... e design is so cute!!!! okie, i a sucker 4 cute stuff ..... @ least its 5x cheaper then e authenic 1.... when gt more cash then gt e authenic 1....

then gt a lot of time n it was still raining... so go bugis junction.... go walk, go TFS..... then go arcade..... c ppl catch bear bear..... lolz...... 4 e 1st time tong catch a bear n give me!!!! damn happy.... pooh bear some more!!!! lolz..... n best part.... he catch it 4 1 dollar.... lolz.....

then go MS.... walk walk here n there.... then meet e rest..... eat MOF..... lolz........ tis time 4gt 2 take photos..... lolz..... e red beans dessert n their dango/mochi still rox.... lolz..... me n cl juz luv them..... lolz....... then open present.... gt a monokuroboo plate n perlini white bag from them.... lolz.... thanx guys....... aft dinner go walk walk then take 502 hme.....

reach hme feel sick... eat too much.... lolz.....

20 may...... meet cnp peeps.... go orchard walk walk..... meet lk during her lunch break..... then continue walk walk..... go far east take neoprint.... look 4 vl fren present..... then walk back 2 taka 4 dinner..... pepper lunch.... ok n so so only..... recall our 1st cnp chalet.... laugh till peng..... then eat cake go cine take neoprint again.... then go hme....

21may.... meet karin go qx hse... haiz....

reach her hse play ds all e way.... zzzz make me feel like buying ds again.....
go out 2 buy ingredients 4 dinner...... karin slipper spoil hafway.....zzzzz...... reach qx hse slack awhile.... then cook..... dinner 9.30 then start 2 eat.... dots..... then 10+ go back le..... lot of stuff..... cnp present shld noe..... dunno then too bad.... anyway.... qx like e present gd enough......

long blog..... next time blog.... shld b either i gt a new cam or upload pics from phone...zzzz.....

tis sux

2007-02-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

feel suxy tis few wks. grandpa pass away, best fren left 4 studies, ppl ard me seems 2 b drifing away.....

ppl i can confide in2 no longer seem 2 have time 4 talks.....
watever things happening i always get left out....

recent outings juz feel so left out. again.
tis juz sux totally.

even if i juz go away 4 wks no 1 bothers or notice

leave me thinking where do i stand. a fren or a passerby.

just feel like disappearing from e face of e earth

.... backtracking.....

2007-01-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

as e title suggest, backtrack on main events ba...

meet xq they all 2 celebrate her belated bd... ppl who attend shld noe y i flame up.... dunno also nvm.... dun care le.... anyway... manage 2 take neoprints.... so long since e last time we took....

xmas.... didnt really celebrate tis yr..... go out wif family..... nt much.....

mel bd..... meet up wif them as well..... as usual.... every1 is late.... when was e last time dinner last 4 3 hrs.....

new yr eve.... chalet! lolz..... our 2nd class chalet..... haha.... tis yr gt a few more ppl add 2 e gathering... although some couldnt make it..... so nice 2 have every1 back.... even juz 4 a day..... man.... how i miss our sch days.... although almost everyday there is small quabblings n tis n tt.... but @ least is still fun n wat we look forward to.... k... subtract e freaking damn deadlines, projects, common tests & exams... LOLZ.....

aft whole nite of gaming n so on..... carry on 2 shopping wif sis they all.... lack of slp.... keep throwing temper.....

2nd day of new yr.... went wif qy 2 watch death note.... nt bad....

rest of e month... rushing report.... till now still nt done.... haiz.... curse e sch 4 pushing forward e deadline......

gt a lot of tots.... but juz cant seem 2 write out here..... mayb when mood n concentration better then write ba....

...zzz....

2006-12-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

.... continue wif my sis wedding day.....

........

... juz jump to summary.... those interested i can tell u another time.....

..... go groom hse 4 tea ceromony... funny things happen....
.... aft changing no time 2 rest.... rush back 2 my hse.....
.... bride family tea ceromony..... eat buffet lunch.....
..... rush 2 hotel....

.... reach hotel.... no time 2 rest.... start preparing 4 dinner....
.... do makeup..... rush down 2 help sis wif e reception....
.... funny things happen....
.... dinner is greatly.... but portion 4 e vip tables.... 2 mi is somehow small.....
.... but e taste is good.....
.... aft tt e usual go ard table n take photos....
.... finally... groom bro make him drink a ton of weird wine/beer/alcoholic stuff
.... go back pack some stuff n carry back hme....

.... reach hme 12+.... stay up till 2 am in e morning 2 do tt stupid report due in a few hrs.....
.... cant finish.... slp a few hrs.... continue doing till 1+.... finally done... print n out of hse....
.... went 2 buy xxxholic pouch.... finally in stock!.....
.... then rush down back 2 sch 2 hand in e stupid report.....
.... aft tt meet jas they all.... go town eat dinner... finally buy e wkly organsier refill....
.... then go back hme n hit e bed..... lolz.....

..... following wk.... go samsung hub 4 work..... haha.... gt 2 eat lunch wif cl n jas......
..... aft tt go back ubi techpark.....
..... e agm stuff drive mi 2 e walls.....
.... shouldnt tok abt tt..... if nt tis will b a long entry.... again.....

.... dec come..... go back hq 2 work....
.... 1st day.... they keep pushing me... discussing where i shld go n blah blah blah.....
.... listen till fed up.... cry over lunch.....
.... aft tt things r ok.... can get along wif colleagues @ hq....

last fri met cl n xtina aft work.... so long nv meet xtina le.... then walk here walk there.... tok abt tis n tt... feel so gd.... lolz..... sat help ma clean e stainless steel window grills.... now is sparkling.... :) but made a hell mess on my fingers.... e stains cant come off... have 2 scrub like siao 2 get them off.... till now still gt a bit still cant get off..... no choice.... aft tt go jp walk walk.... manage 2 buy xmas cd!!!.....

.... ah.... xmas coming!!!!!!..... gd n bad....
holidays!!!!!! gifts!!!!!! money fly!!!!!!.......
speaking of money.... recently get deducted 4 sch fees.....
n i still havnt get my nov pay....-_-''''
where 2 get e money!!!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzz.......

.....anyway.... a few things i happy over e wkends..... finally get my 1st adidas jacket!!!!!..... cl they noe which 1.... e black wif blue strips!!!!! finally manage 2 pursude my ma y i shld get it.... (lots n pls n crapping)..... lolz..... anyway.... my bro n my sis also get things from adidas.... lolz.... been soooooooo long since we three do shopping.... as in buy things 2gether .... lolz.....

..... saw e roadshow @ vivo..... think getting w850i..... tt is when my contract end in aug next yr..... plz make my hp last till then.... dun nd another nds 2 add on 2 my neverending list...... juz 2 wks ago.... gt e new mp3.... old 1 spoil.... heart ache..... spend 500+ on 2 mp3 within a yr...... when i can use tt money n top it up a bit more 2 get mi a camera...... haiz...... camera have 2 wait another yr.... again.....

speaking of money..... again.....
juz went 2 read ppl blog..... c something i dun really like 2 c....
juz becoz i voice out dun mean wat.... but everytime ppl bd go out eat.... cant dun too ex.....
right now doing iap.... full time job.... worse than part time pay..... cant afford 2 eat too ex....
$25 bucks a meal can sometime b reasonable.... depending on e month n wat we eating....
coz tt $25 bucks is wat i earn a day 4 e stupid iap.... n 4 e total amount i get 2 save haf of it in 1 place 4 my future education.... my ma n pa dun have e money 4 me 2 even complete poly.... so dun tell mi bd eat gd.... i believe gd food dun come wif big tabs.... wait till i get a full time job n save enough money 4 my studies then tok abt high end living.... 4 now e most urgent things 2 get is laptop, hp, camera n a degree. unless any1 out there can help mi get 2 of of these 4, then we can tok abt every few wks go xxx 2 celebrate xxx bd/ gathering....

tis is reality.... i voice out coz no 1 willing 2 b e bad guy/wet blanket..... if i'm e only 1 i gt no choice but 2 go wif e flow.... but if there any1 wif e same thinking i dun mind being e 1 2 get shoot/ bad mouth or watever u wan 2 call it....

pl who read tis may b get piss off or wat.... sorry 2 sae but is wat i think.... n i'm nt e only 1 who thinks tt... if really offend u in anyway... sorry in advance but i will nt change tis mindset....

.... gd food dun come with big tabs..... is e thoughts tt counts......

holidays!!!!

2006-11-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

.... so long since my last post...
anyway, prob resolve 4 tt.
shldnt post neg tots tt much... @ least 4 tis post.... lolz
therefore tis shld b a happy 1 ( k, i nt making much sense out of tis, but again, i juz let my tots rattle off. lolz)

my sis wedding!
couldnt bear 2 c her getting married, but @ least she is happy wif her choice. lolz
actually e planning all those started a few months back, n i did my best 2 help them wif wat i can. (i missed out e fun 4 my bro wedding, no way i going 2 miss out 4 my sis! lolz)
hotel, banquet, date all those r fixed by themselves, while e guest list is by e parents.
i juz tag along when choosing photos n wedding gown. lolz. n also give them a few idea on how 2 combine e wedding album. in fact, i still didnt get 2 c e final product yet!

sis wedding is glam, n they both do their best 2 make it work well n congrats them 4 doing a great job. afterall, its once in a life time.

made these cutie braclets 4 e 6 jie mei my sis have, including mi n jolene. (couldnt upload e pics coz 4gt 2 take them b4 giving out. waiting 4 e photographer 2 develop e pics. hopefully got capture a few of them)

p.s. take note as i juz write wat comes 2 my mind so there b a lot of jumping here n there.

3days b4 wedding
suppose 2 go jb wif them 2 collect wedding gown aft work, end up they went n e aftnoon. relatives came down 2 visit, gt 2 play host in e absense of e couple. lolz. sis came back n complaint abt food poisoning. drag her 2 c doc b4 it get worse.

2 days b4 wedding
sis come back hme 2 stay, custom- couples r nt suppose 2 meet e day b4 their wedding, there4 both she n her hubby gt 2 go back 2 parents hme.
happy coz i get 2 c sis more often. lolz (& also bug her 2 help mi wif my report. =p)
& also go 2 gpsc 2 bk appointment 4 mani & pedicure. follow ma n pa 2 jw 2 get last min shopping. some stuff couldnt get have 2 get next day. very rush!

1 day b4 wedding
manage 2 get up early in e morning 4 work. sis slping like a log.... -.-''.... manage 2 get haf day off from work. went back hme 2 help out. wait 4 sis 2 return hme coz her dryer n washing machine faulty. went 2 get mani n pedicure aft tt. haha. 1st time 4 mi & finally get 2 do e sisterly stuff wif sis. (been missing out a lot of sisterly stuff, now making up 4 e lost time. lolz). n finally she do something abt her hair aft continuous nagging from mi n ma.. LOL.... went 2 jp 2 met her ex-colleague who cant attend e wedding. get 2 eat subway finally. n do our last min shopping! manage 2 get a nice necklace which both of us agreed on n a banglet. when hme aft tt n ma help 2 prepare wedding stuff... help sis wif facial mask n all e wedding preparation, while getting pointers on report writing... lolz.... she could get 2 slp, so watch tv, while i so drain on energy....

actual day
get 2 wake up @ 5.... i get last then 4 hrs of slp.... n sis get even lesser.... chinese tradition stuff, blah blah blah... make up artist came @ 6 am..... n start doing her makeup..... i do my own n help ma wif e contact lens... photograph came @ 6.30.... videographer came @ 7.... n my sis jie mei came @ 6.35..... y every1 is so early.... n man... i regret nv deco my rm when i get e chance 2....

go c her jie mei prepare stuff 2 tease e grooom.... it is gross.... i dun even wan 2 noe wat is inside aft cing e bottles of liquid wif weird smell.... gd luck 2 e groom n his brothers..... ard 8, groom arrive, he's anxious.... get 2 ask him 2 wait coz my nephew havnt reach.... he's suppose 2 open e door 4 e groom.... lucky arrive in time.... open e door n blah blah blah... on e way 2 fetch e bride....

lucky we choose 2 come up b4 e groom does... if nt we r trapped outside.... me, my sister-in-law n jolene, stay wif sis through out e whole 'teasing' while e other 4 jie mei grill e groom n his brothers. overall it funny. (cldnt add in much detail as e video of e whole process havnt been deveolped out. rmb. i was i e rm e whole time, therefore i can only hear n nt watch. but thoses outside had a gd time watching e fun) in e end, ma give them e key 2 my rm, n i end up getting injured while trying 2 hold back e guys tt play foul. jie meis get injured too....

shld cont tml.
too tire 2 cont 2day... lolz

had enough!!!!!!

2006-10-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

so wat if ur my father! have u even think of mi as ur daughter!!!!!
since young u dislike mi n keep on making comparsion wif mi and sis!!!!!
it not my fault tt i become like tis!!!!! u r e cause of it!!!!!!!

u nv think of wat u say has such a big impact, nv even think of how i feel!
how e hell can i treat u wif respect once hearing tt u did nt wan mi in e 1st place!
if tt e case y e hell did u give birth to mi! to make mi suffer!

already had a long day n wan 2 do my own things n yet alway have 2 help u wif tis n tt!
tot u tons of times how 2 do it n there even a chinese manual bk!
didnt even get e chance to use ur hp n yet wan mi 2 changes things!
how many times muz i sae i'm nt using nokia n no longer familiar wif it!!!!!
it ur hp nt mine!!!! read on ur own damn it!!!!!!

since young e only tt care 4 mi is ma n sis! when have u ever care 4 mi!
if u think supporting my expense is care u r hell wrong!
money dun mean care! all u noe is scold, beat n tok big!

u sae u r fair 2 all of us but have u shown e equal amount of care n love!
fair my foot!
when sick u didnt even care
come back hme didnt even care 2 ask mi whether things r well a nt
didnt do well in sch u scold n beat
do well u do nth 2 encourage mi!
i noe more abt u then u noe mi! n u claim 2 b my father!

juz because u my father dun mean u e only 1 can throw temper!
i also a human wif feelings n tots!
doesnt mean tt i'm ur daughter i have 2 swallow down all anger all these years!

had enough of him!!!!1 i wan 2 move out!!!!!!

WTF

2006-09-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

my mood juz turn from bad 2 worse. again.
wake up morning tot 2dae shld b a better dae. reach workplace still ok. same routine till aft 10. e same old guy come down again. hello! i cant understand wat u saying! if u wan something can u @ least ask some1 2 accompany u down or even write out a letter! i can read n tok chinese but nt hokkien!

tt is e 1st thing tt spoilt my mood
e 2nd 1

2+ tis fucking officer called n ask 4 report. already told him on mon tt e guy nv pass mi any report of any thing n i have ask my SO abt it le which he also nt sure himself n sae he will help mi check 1st. then told him didnt receive any report of tt such from e lift company as well. n he slam e phone wtf. 2dae he called again n demand 4 e report! told him nicely there is no such report receive from e lift company tis few daes as well. ask him roughly how it look like n he raise his voice n tell mi 2 call e lift company! @ least tell mi wat is inside e report so i can call n ask!!! idiot! so high up in rank even simple qns also cannot ans! i juz started working there less than a wk n is totally new 2 all these things! e past 2 wks work in ubi gt no such prob n there is ppl 4 mi 2 ask when i in doubt. here is completely no ppl 2 ask! ask my SO over e phone sometimes dun work! hell wif tt!

haf an hr later another officer called. tis is a thousand time much better. @ least she gt call b4 on mon 2 ask mi things n a bit of 'history'. n she nv raised her voice @ all. hello! ur ranks is higher than her but she gt better attitude than u idiot! fax her wat she wants n she even advise mi wat 2 do n things like tt. which i have already done so once i receive e things. is my SO told mi 2 hold on to it 1st! ask her abt e previous call n how e thing e idiot looking 4 look like so i can try 2 find it all over again. n she told mi they have e report

....

WTF!!!!!!

n i get AP for NOTHING!!!!!!!! HELL WIF TT!!!!!!!!

she told mi wat they wan is e lift cert. FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!! LIFT CERT IS LIFT CERT!!!!! REPORT IS REPORT!!!!! STATE WAT U WANT CLEARLY!!!!! N NOT SLAM E FREAKING DAMN PHONE WHEN U URSELF CAN'T MAKEUP WAT U WANT N MAKE UR SELF CLEAR IDIOT!!!!!!

ard 1 + another officer called. tis time is ask abt tenant units n stuff like tt. he's much more frendlier n much more considerate! n his rank is way much higher then e idiot!!!!! learn from them!!!!! u wan 2 b strict or wat even hell is ur prob, dun try 2 vent ur frustration when things dun go e way u wan on some1 who has 2 clear up e shit tt e previous 1 left behide!!! n a temp staff dun mean they noe every single thing! when e perm staff nv inform them on such things n dun allow access 4 them where e hell 2 get e iinfo when u urself wanting e item cant even describe it! stupid idiot!!!!

shld sae who these officer i refering to. those who has my msn shld noe.

n other worse thing is there is something freaking wrong wif e rm! e amt of static inside is freaking huge!!!!!

everydae will kenna shocked by it @ least 20 times!!! wat worse is even wearing jacket, lowering e air co n all e possible methods 2 reduce static DOES NOT WORK!!!!!! wat e hell is wrong wif tt rm!!!!! b4 touch anything, n i really mean ANYTHING, have 2 use pen of something else to release e static build up b4 even touching it wif hands. a few times is still ok.... but over 20 times a day is damn irritating n damn painful when e distance of static charge can b as far as is like more than 2cm away? feeling frustrated already n e static shocks still have 2 kick in 2 make mi feel even worse!!!! hell wif tt!!!!

HOPEFULLY tml sat n e whole of next wk be peaceful! if nt i b a raging bull!

WTF

2006-09-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

SNAPPING

2006-09-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

my day sucks 2dae so i nt going 2 think 1st b4 i rattle off anything here

those who noe mi 4 yrs shld noe very well how i will like 2 b inform on any outings gathering or watever hell tt is going on b4 hand. NOT e day b4 or WORSE on e day itself!!!!

not able 2 provide full details is OK, but AT LEAST roughly wat is going on & when!!!!! n ppl- in-charge shld b e 1 informing every1, not by passing msg ard!!!!!!

tis is e least requirements i need from u guys when ur sae there is a gathering or watever. coz i dun like last min things n stuff like tt, it make mi feel like i juz an extra, turn up or not makes no differences.

if tt is really e case then make sure tt i m nt inform by any1, any method @ all. if nt i b snapping!!!!

ur may think i making tis in2 a big issue but e reason y i doing tis is coz i c ur as my part of my family, nt juz ppl u meet get along n once separate loses contact wif. once i accept ppl in2 tis family circle i wan 2 maintain tt relationship 4 as long as possible, nt juz letting it end within a few yrs.

ur noe i dunno how 2 express myself well enough 4 ur 2 totally understand mi, tis is e best i can do. if ur still think i making a big fuss out of nothing then i gt nothing else 2 sae

3rd wk of iap....

2006-09-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

so far almost 3 wks have gone since 1ap started.... so far so gd i guess?.... juz tt e xxx is veri veri irriating.... haha.... i'm nt e only 1 in e office who feels tt.... cant tok much abt tt here.... lolz.... haha.... mon gt new staff join us.... haha..... by 2dae hit off quite well wif her.... haha.... maybe cause our age gap nt tt far?..... wahaha.... i getting nuts over here le....

.... in office nth 4 mi 2 do.... i going 2 rot 2 death le..... gt 2 find own form of entertainment..... hell..... y do other their iap seem more meaningful?..... haiz.... have 2 ren till mid oct then start 2 get busy...... anyway..... juz gt a call from e manager tt sent mi there.... sae my offical SO nd 2 send mi 2 1 of e NC..... but he nt sure where..... have 2 wait 4 him 2 call mi...... n suppose 2 report 4 work tml..... but from morning till now i havnt receive a single call from him..... tried his hp but he didnt pickup..... think tml still have 2 go ubi there le.... dun wan 2 wake up so early..... :(

other then tt e rest is quite ok.... juz tt ytd.... gt 2 type survey & letter.... n photocopy 680 copies..... n fold them n send them 2 e tenants...... tis e 1st time i do so much manual paper folding..... n xxx expect us 2 finish n send them out e dae itself...... siao..... he 9 plus then give mi e thing.... on top of tt i nd 2 supervise worker.... fax doc n answer t stupid phone calls tt nv stop ringing which ppl on e other line either complaint abt e same few issue or ask stupid qns...... n hell! i using my own laptop somemore!..... n he give mi a diskette..... which laptop on earth still use diskette!.... n expect e letter n survey form 2 b out b4 lunch..... juz becoz he lost e softcopy.... hell wif tt!!!!!!

really 'see' a lot of different type of ppl wif different pattern everydae..... sian..... so far so gd i guess..... juz havn't met wif those type tt make mi blow up..... other than 1..... which might almost land mi in trouble due 2 her bitchy attitude..... n notice 1 common tread..... e rich ppl get.... e more demanding n troublemaking a person get....... lolz

dun even understand y they make us work on sat..... my colleague sae on sat 90% of tenant nt in..... n is really quiet..... e phone ring only a few times.... i can even play game.... imagine how boring...... dun wan 2 work on sat!!!!!..... it no fun @ all..... wake up @ 6 n travel 3hrs to n forth..... crazy.......

last sat chalet.... quite ok..... manage 2 get some slp..... juz tt nt all cnp ppl r there...... n quite a lot happen.... so..... shld tok more on it..... those present noe wat happen can already..... if tok all here i can 4get abt slping 2nite.... anyway.... wake up @ 3+ 2 go airport send alvin off..... haha.... think a bit emotional..... lolz..... dunno is mi myself think like tt or wat..... juz hate 2 send ppl off..... coz will somehow get emotional...... lolz.... aft tt went back 2 chalet 2 eat breakfast n slp..... wake up a few times..... coz wanting 2 go 2 jap high sch feast.... but have 2 wait 4 qx n qy 2 wake up..... in e end nv go.... coz qx fren who went there sae no fun..... went 2 e changi park tt qx wanted 2 go badly..... haha..... we down there guessing which airline e planes r from...... went back home aft tt..... @ hme a lot of things happen also..... dun wan 2 tok here..... c no purpose in saying here coz e response i get probably e same as those i ask...... heck care.....

mon bro come n ask mi wat e hell i doing @ airport in sun morning..... sent fren off get prob isit?.... he send his fren off can la.... i send my fren off cannot isit?.... e airport nt he own 1 wat..... crazy bro......

sian.... tire le.... tml still nd 2 wake up @ 6..... gtg slp le..... think 2-3 wks later then update ba... lazy.... lolz

2nd dae....

2006-09-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

... doubt i will b in mood 2 write anything abt genting 4 tis wk..... juz dun have e mood.....

2nd dae of attachment.... gt 2 report 2 ubi techpark.... e place is damn far..... took more than an hr from hse 2 reach there.... i dun like tt..... e only gd point is i get 2 go off 1/2hr earlier..... but by e time reach hme.... it ard 7.30.... no diff.....

staff there not bad.... older than mi.... so find it hard 2 find common topics 2 tok abt.... feeling veri lonely.... how much i miss sch n hme.... shldnt have ask sis 2 help mi get placement there.... gd n bad pts.... really much e fun we had..... n e journey back is so long n lonely..... hate working life....

reach office early.... again.... tis time is no 1 @ office.... so have 2 wait outside 4 ppl 2 come n open e door.... they sae e centre manager @ HQ.... have 2 wait till he come back then brief mi on wat 2 do.... ask mi 2 help answer e phone.... morning 1 still ok.... late afternoon e calls getting more aggresive.... tenants themselves seem 2 have prob..... nt too sure coz i dun dare 2 ask....

centre manager brief mi.... sae i b answer phone calls coz they seriously short of manpower.... then if any water seepage prob.... i b 'in-charge'.... i'm scare of heavy responsibility.... it juz e 2nd dae of work!!!..... n tis is e 1st time i actually working full time..... tears juz swell up when i alone wif nothing 2 do.... juz keep on trying 2 find things 2 do..... try 2 draw e organization chart..... n so on 4 e report..... pc infornt of mi i cant use.... no internet connetion.... they using modemn..... only thing i can look is e tenant list....

been told tt there b a MC meeting tis thurs.... centre manager sae he try 2 ask senior manager @ HQ 2 allow mi 2 attend.... feel happy n scare @ e same time.... afraid of commenting serious errors.... no confidence in myself..... so much things learn b4 i forgotten.... when they ask i juz totally blank out.... i dunno wat 2 do..... colleague there seem nt bad.... juz tt i veri afraid 2 ask them stuff coz they always busy....

1 of e staff take mi ard e whole estate in late afternoon.... bring mi 2 e FCC.... ard e blocks.... he's a fast speaker.... having trouble catching wat he sae..... he also taught mi how 2 ans some of e calls... do logging of faults n so on..... another lady.... taught mi how 2 do filing... answering call... handling tenants requests.... n a lot more..... it seem they try 2 break e ice wif mi..... juz tt i cant seem 2 break it.... i dunno how 2 communicate long time wif ppl much more senior than mi..... try 2 b as relax n casual as possible le.... juz tt i always seem 2 jam things up.....

how i wish there is some1 close 2 my age 2 b in e office.... @ least i wont b tt lonely.... praying tt i can feel comfortable there asap.... if nt i b crying everydae.... damn.... becoming a crybaby soon.... if nt HQ ask mi go back to office..... at least there gt ppl i can tok 2 n can get 2 c sis once in a while..... or sent mi 2 somewhere nearer 2 hme.... @ least i can get back hme within an hour.... e jounery to n forth is e hardest n torturing coz they make mi think of things tt will make mi cry.....

trying 2 learn as much as possible n trying 2 adapt 2 working life..... praying veri hard 4 iap 2 pass wif a breeze.... any1 up in e heavens plz juz let tis 6 mths pass by quick n smooth..... 2 daes is enough 2 make mi wan 2 countdown 2 end of iap le....

attachment started...

2006-09-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

no mood 2 blog on genting trip.... attachment juz started 2dae.... 1 thing 4 sure is i'm nt prepared 4 working life....

wake up early in e morning reach office ard 8... rot there wif william till 8.30.... meet ppl from HR.... she's nice... brief us on company profolio... all get shock when she told us we gt 2 work on alterna sat.... bring us ard.... william gt post to jurong dorm.... mi n and girl from cee get 2 stay in HQ... so as i tot....

.... wait 4 my SO 2 come... bring mi 2 my seat.... intro colleagues 2 mi.... seem like nice ppl.... could get 2 noe them better coz nt long aft.... SO n senior manager discussing senting mi to ubi site.... 4 3 mths.... dread..... no idea where e place is.... n gt no idea how e ppl there is n wat i b doing there..... e senior manager seem scary.... i dunno how 2 intereact wif ppl....

given ISO n guidebk 2 read through.... almost finish.... feeling tire..... lunch time.... colleague bring mi along.... get 2 noe hui min.... e previous batch iap std..... teach mi some stuff.... help mi intereact wif colleagues.... didnt feel tt bad aft a while.....

aft lunch went back 2 office.... help joyce 2 photocopy doc.... actually wanted 2 go wif jez 2 collect things 4 her event.... end up my SO sae call ppl 2 deliver 2 site... end up both of us didnt get out.... later jez taugh mi abt data entry.... manage 2 finish most of it....

throughout e dae sis msg mi.... ask mi abt work n stuff.... feel so much better.... ard 4+ she come back office.... feel so happy 2 c her.... been feeling weird e whole dae.... nt used 2 being inside e office....n e office is so cold... keep on going 2 e toilet.... somemore going 2 get sore throat le... have 2 keep on drinking water....

continue doing data entry aft taking a small break wif jez..... aft jez n joyce finish preparing 4 meeting.... chat a bit abt hobbies.... both of them r rather nice.... jez try 2 make mi comfortable there.... keep checking on mi c i can manage a nt.... haha.... give mi a mini pack of m&m b4 i leave....

wait 4 sis 2 finish work n 4 bro-in-law 2 come fetch us.... till 7 like tt.... slp throughout e whole jounery back..... now worry abt tml only.... dread of working in ulu place.... even sis sae ubi is far n is worried..... pray tt ppl there r nice n they dun bully newbies.... n pray tt iap will b over in no time n prepare mi 2 go 4 work....

holiday mood....

2006-09-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

.... issue on last entry revolve le.... more or less...
.... ignore tt 4 e time being.....

.... juz come back from genting....
.... blog abt tt in another entry....
.... b4 tt is exam wk..... n study wk....
.... shld start wif study wk 1st....

tests on study wk.... over.... shldnt sae much on it.... coz i getting stm.... cnp ppl shld noe wat it means.... lolz.... esp karin n qx...... lolz

only rmb e thurs - sun of tt wk.... coz my nightmare begins on thurs.... nt on exam side.... my pc 'crash'.... k.... some stupid spyware take away my system file.... making it impossible 2 enter windows @ all.... make mi panic till siao.... all my jap class recordings r inside.... as well as my video, anime, photos, music n doc r all in there. no time 2 do backup @ all.....

fri meet up wif my go anime hse.... again spend a lot there.... n is really A LOT.... partly is coz helping my sis 2 get stuff there.... haha.... she also addicted 2 anime le.... lolz..... think e only way to stop mi from spending more on anime stuff is to either brainwash mi or ask japan companies 2 stop producing anime goods tt is sooooo hard 2 resist..... lolz..... (it's impossible.... k.... my weakness is cute chibi stuff.... lolz.... tell mi who can resist them) haha.... even my sae i no hope liao.... lolz......

sat had a fight wif my bro.... coz as usual he assume tt it is due 2 my dling habits tt lead 2 kenna virus which cause my pc to 'crash'.... wth! i m veri carefully wif e kind of stuff i dl over e net ok! n i noe wat is a virus n wat is nt! dun treat mi like a idiot!.... cant stand him whenever he accuse mi of tt!.... he's e 1 tt teach mi all these stuff n he's e 1 tt bring mi in2 dl n there he goes screaming @ mi!.... stupid..... everytime ask him pc can fix a nt he keep saying spoil liao spoil liao.... hate him doing tt!..... aft a while he cool down then tell him wat tis n tt which i already noe... argh!!!!..... lucky sis is there 2 help mi if nt i b hopping mad le..... e only happy thing after tt was going 2 chomp chomp eat....(e standard drop.... sad) n finally get 2 eat durian!!!!!

sun went over 2 sis hse 2 try get back my files.... thx god all e files r safe.... transfer them 2 my external hdd b4 format e whole hdd.... scan 4 virus n other stuff n found i have no virus @ all.... juz tt i get 78 ad-wares.... tt is a lot.... n tt is e main reason which my pc 'crash' n nt due 2 virus!..... 4gt 2 transfer 1 folder of anime in2 e hdd b4 format.... nd 2 redl them again.... aft tt go clementi 4 dinner n come back continue 2 fix my pc..... veri attached 2 my pc.... coz all my photos, memories n music r in there.... juz cldnt find e time 2 sort them out yet n backup.... have 2 really find 1 wk 2 do tt....

mon wake up feeling damn sick..... e moment i sit up i feel like puking..... shivering @ certain time..... ma tot coz my messup slping time cause it.... cldnt study @ all.... n i have a paper e next dae.... n 2 sae e truth.... i only read through a few chapters.... n havnt even get impt pts inside..... finally went 2 e doc ard 7+.... doc cldnt tell wat's wrong wif mi... he sae i have caught something n all e syptoms havnt show yet.... having a fever of 38+ which explain my shiverings.... waited 4 2hrs b4 finally my turn 2 c e doc... n less than 10 mins i'm out of e office.... practically waste 2hrs.... try 2 stuff watever i can in2 e brain b4 i slp....

tues paper..... e 2nd time in my life i cldnt finish my paper.... still having a fever e whole dae.... aft e paper went west mall wif qx....(i'm nuts i noe.... shld b resting @ hme instead of running ard n eating kfc some more.... lolz) try 2 find blueberry breakfast.... went 2 3 different supermarket b4 finally getting e 3rd last box of it.... blueberry n almond is e best!.... lolz

wed n thurs mugging bmd.... cldnt study @ all.... e moment open e bk or look @ e ppt i feel like doing other stuff.... it can b an interesting subject 2 mi.... but coz e lec who is teaching make it e most boring subject.... totally lose interest in it.... finally manage 2 get something inside e brain.... n gald tt finally it over.....

fri aft paper go do some stuff in sch b4 go clementi 2 rot.... coz nd 2 go back 2 sch 4 e oiap/iap/ihp briefing which shld b b4 e exams.... finally finish our last paper n yet we cant enjoy e little remaining time b4 4th sep.... it sux even more when i noe my lo is our most hated lec.... i going 2 die under him.... he is e worse lec in e whole divison..... those under him is cursing n swearing..... man.... how e hell can i survive wif tt kind of lec..... gt 2 pray damn hard tt my so is a 100x better than him.....

sat.... went out wif sis, ma n bro..... went 2 try necessarites 4 genting trip.... get a 2gb sd card.... n new sandals..... e sandal is unexpected.... lolz.... n a few other stuff.... sun went jb shopping.... buy quite a lot of stuff.... pack my bag..... cldnt slp..... e next thing i noe is mon.... genting trip!!!!

.... shld blog on it tml..... still trying 2 get photos n videos from e rest.... until can get most of them... couldnt post much on it..... 4 now juz can sae we r so damn lucky 4 tis trip..... haha.....

back 2 anime time.... btw.... recently hooked on 2 Daa!Daa! Daa!.... i noe it's quite old.... but e story is nice.... toks abt family n stuff n lots of funny scenes.... e only thing is it runs of 70 epsiodes.... n till now i can only find up to epsoide 58.... waiting 2 complete it.... highly recommended 4 those who like comdey, cute aliens, n babies!

@ my limits now

2006-08-17T15:37:00.000+08:00

previous post is totally crap
tot having mood swings tt y have those tots
2dae event yet have proven tt statement right again

juz dun understand wat e fuck when wrong
ur claim 2 b my frends yet 4gotten my existance
if 2dae jas didnt stay throughout e paper u juz like e few previous paper
juz go w/o telling

go get back paper get every1 paper except mine
ask ur things totally ignore mi
go get myself all juz go off like tt

everytime walk 2 another location juz left mi behind
tok abt stuff dun fill mi in

do work all e parts u choose n do n left behind throw 4 mi 2 do
get any new stuff info ur 1st nv nv seem 2 info mi till aft everything has end

n ur claim tt i'm a part of ur
IS THIS WAT U CALL FREINDS!!!!!!!!!!!

is there once i reject ur when ur ask 4 help
n when i help didnt i try my best 2 help
is there even once i use actions 2 hurt ur?
everytime ur gt things 2 sae i listen

but did ur listen 2 wat i sae!
did ur even notice im troubled
or ur juz chose 2 ignore?
did ur even noe tt everything ur done i take it 2 heart!

ur noe i wont sae all these verbally when in grp
i gt no choice but 2 trash everything out here
tell mi wat 2 do
coz i got no damn idea wat ur thinking

all these things make mi feel like a fool
i dun even noe where i stand in tis grp
or do i even have a place in it

ur may think i being over sensitive n make a big fuss out of it
but tis feeling is being supress inside mi 4 a long time
n im @ my limits of supressing them le
delay anymore i will juz go bonkers

@ least tell mi wat ur think
tt will give mi some ideas wat 2 do next n where i shld head next